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My (user)name is Jack, please read my recovery story. I was addicted for 38+ years until I found this site. Do the 90 days, even one minute at a time, if you have to. Join a phone group - you will find one here that suits you. Don't attempt this by yourself. Would you att...

We need all hands on deck... We're fighting back and the revolution is growing. Instead of watching men fall, one by one to the wayside, the opposite is happening... Men are joining the ranks of GYE and reversing the tide. They're telling the lust machine that we will not...

Someone wrote on the forum: Since my last fall, I can't seem to get back up. I keep falling lower and lower, again and again. I can't stop myself. "Shnook" replies: First of all, get out of the house. Go sit somewhere where it's nice in the outdoors, maybe on a park benc...

"FrumFiend" writes on our forum for the first time: I am a respected marbitz torah and mashpiah ruchani. I fell into tumah very young age (a guy showed me something). I spent years spending every moment lusting after and dreaming about how to access such material. In Beis...

For me, it wasn't about getting caught... I still believe that I can likely carry on forever and never get caught... I probably will never lose my job or family because of it... So why am I doing all that I can to stop, even joining these embarrassing SA meetings? I guess...

Guys, did you know Shavuos is right around the corner? I feel so unprepared - Hashem has been sending me a gazillion messages that I should get back into a regular learning schedule. We want FREEDOM from lust, right? Well, as the writing on the Luchos teaches us ("charus ...

"NoWhereToTurn" posted this shocking post on our forum recently: Sholom Aleichem warriors, I am a regular 15 yr old yeshiva bochur in a top yeshiva in somewhere, but have internet at home. Besides for my own problems with watching my eyes and controlling my hotzoas zer...

By "Jack" (Clean for 1.5 years. See his 90 day time-line here) "Ain simcha b'makom sheyetzer hara sholet - there is no happiness in the place that the Yetzer Hara reigns". This is brought by the Kitzur Shulchan Aruch in the halachos of sheva brachos, as a reason for men t...

While the GYE forum was down this week, I was talking to my GYE friends off-site and I was telling them that I felt it was time for me to go... The repeated falls were making me believe it's hopeless... But certain events have transpired which gave me reason to believe th...

I can relate to every subtle point in both Duvid Chaim's and Dov's responses. They really "get it". Since I think I do too, I'm really part of this family - whether I go to SA meetings or not. I've become aware of the slightest spark in my internal lust sensor. That aware...

"Me" posted to a newbie on the forum: As I am approaching close to 2 years on this forum, I would like to somehow save you much time. Can you do the following? 1) Admit that you are an addict to internet "P". 2) Do some soul searching, and see that somewhere in your life...

When I am faced with a big test, I see it as a personal smile from G-d Himself telling me face to face with love, "I KNOW you have a yetzer hara, and I also know that YOU, YES YOU and ONLY YOU, can overcome it. This is something that all of heaven and any angel doesn't ha...

I just want to share with everyone some statistics. After Yeshiva World offered us a great deal (based on this letter that Rabbi Twerski wrote to Jewish websites), I pledged $225 a month to run the current GYE ad on www.theyeshivaworld.com indefinitely. Guard thanked me a...

It says sur mayra vaasey tov, first turn away from bad, and THEN, and only then, do good. What does this mean for us? It means that you can't start enjoying the benefits of what a clean life means if you're still acting out. So in the 12 step groups, they want you to be s...

Here is the preface to a new e-Book written by Elya K. called "The Mask in the Mirror". Elya is a U.S. Hotline Moderator, Sponsor and Group Leader for GYE for already 3 years. To purchase the e-Book for $3 contact Elya by clicking here. Every person is born with an innate...

See Jack's 90-day journey time-line from 3 years ago here. Dear Guard, I'm approaching my 3-year anniversary in 'the struggle'. I can't say I'm perfect, and I've slipped along the way, but only about 5 times in the whole 3 years. What a difference from before I started,...

I now rejoice with my inner animal: and boy is he big! This 'super passion' that I feel, is a most wondrous thing. Of course, acting out is out of the question: period.So now what? All this energy must go 'somewhere'.Here comes responsibility and a schedule.The yetzer is ...

"Any yid can reach to a point where any 'not good' is acharey, behind him. Then his avoda can be in the realm of kedoshim" Other one-liners that Yosef C. sent me: It's a high anxiety time of year... I'm a gonner without Hashem"s help, and I'm beyond grateful that He's 10...