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I am a yungerman, who after spending many years in kollel, is today in the working world. I tried to the best of my ability to ensure that the transition to the work-world would not compromise the standard of Yiddishkiet I had lead when I was in kollel, and for a long tim...

There was a recent article in the Mishpacha dealing with the terrible nisyonos of the internet. It was called "Is the Battle Lost?". Click here to download the article. One of our members (known as "Yurojew") sent in the following reply to Mishpacha, which we hope they wi...

"Loi-miyaeish" (a bachur) wrote in the forum: BARUCH SHECHAYANU VEKIYAMANU VEHIGIYONU LAZMAN HAZEH! Guys, I'm overwhelmed with emotion. I reached 90 days this Rosh Hashana! But there again, without Hashem's help, it would not have been possible. For over a year, I've bee...

I have 41 days sober today. How do I do it? I pray. I rely on G-d, always realizing that lust is more powerful than me and it is only through His strength that I can stay sober. I go to lots of SA meetings. I have a sponsor who I call almost every day. I call others in th...

A Talmid of Duvid Chaim's group wrote yesterday to Steve and Duvid Chaim: After being clean for 112 days, I had a fall today. I was white-knuckling to a degree, happy to "make it through" each day. Don't worry, no depression, I've already turned the fall into an aliyah...

Today is the first anniversary of my joining this site. It truly has been of the most dramatic years of my life. I have changed how I look at this struggle, how I look at myself and how I act. I now know that I am not a monster or a terrible person, rather I am a normal h...

A story sent to us by "Zemirosshabbos" from a blog called Tikkun My wife and I had a newly-wed couple over as guests for the Friday night meal this past Shabbos. We knew the husband, who had grown up in my wife's neighborhood and went to the same shul as my father-in-law;...

The facts don't change for an addict in recovery. The addiction is STILL much stronger and, as far as I know, always will be. The only way out is never to let the addiction in the drivers seat. Keep the real you in charge, as much as it may hurt. And it doeshurt... and yo...

Your story reminds me of my own as well as so many others here on GYE. It's scary how easy it is to get hooked and how difficult it is to extricate yourself later. But if you learn one thing only here, know that it is possible to break free. You do not have to be a slave...

I noticed a while ago that I suffer from an undercurrent of tension that often led me to act out. But thanks to the insights I got through this forum, and especially thanks to Duvid Chaim's group, I think a lot of this tension is gone. The fears and resentments that cause...

We just need to get more well acquainted. But who knows each other better than the members of this forum, who share so much of themselves, their real selves, and go through the same struggles. I’m just like you. okay, maybe not exactly like you, but obviously, from the fa...

Even though I had a fall today, I had a lot of wins over lusting in the last couple of days and I'm proud of myself for that. I feel happy with myself and comfortable on my path to get this lusting out of my life. I don't feel this big disappointment for starting all over...

You know how they say that the Torah's restrictions free a person? Well by working on myself to overcome this addiction, I am really starting to feel it down to my bones and tummy. It's like, now that I don't come home, collapse on my bed, open my laptop and 'do my thing'...

We are far from perfect. We sin, we fall, we fail. And we come to HKBH with requests for life, health, zivugim, etc. and when we are ready to show what we are giving in exchange, we open our palm and discover - nothing! What do we have to 'pay' for these gifts? Our palm l...

Be'H I will complete my second year of no porn / zera livatala very soon. To me, shmiras habris is the most important thing in the world. My first year's tactic was to read GYE and other material as much as I could. This past year, I decided to just not think about it at ...

Day 33 coming up. I have so far steered completely away from p__ & m__. Thankfully, lust is not an issue and I haven't entertained it with my eyes or mind. All in all it's been a very useful experience. My hope is that things progress, more and more and more. How incr...