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Yesterday on my way to Shacharis, I felt VERY uncomfortable & irritable, and I knew I had to do something about this feeling or it might lead me to acting out.So I tried to call someone (1st thing in the morning is even harder than trying to find someone at 2 AM in th...

The root of our disease is self-centeredness. This leads to feelings of entitlement; "I need" and "I deserve". It also leads to resentment when we don't get what we want, and then bitterness, pain and disconnect from G-d. To start recovering, we need to begin changing ou...

Today I noticed that one of the weak links that the Yetzer Hara uses with me, is when he gives me thoughts to be frightened about. "You know, you're not going to be able to make ends meet this month" or, "Did you get everything done for the lawyer?" I live in fear mode. A...

Rabbi Pinchos Roberts brings in his book "Timeless Seasons", that the principle of hashgocho protis is what succos is all about. We remember how Hashem set up camp for us in the midbar and looked after every detail of our needs. We sit under the flimsy s'cach which repres...

I've been having UPS and DOWNS and UPS and DOWNS. I had a few days when I was really taking some lustful looks at people I shouldn't be looking at. I've been thinking about "WHY?" As Duvid Chaim always says (from the Big-Book), we're all fueled by our R.I.D--Restlessnes...

A Member of Duvid Chaim's Phone conference shares his "Excuses List" his addiction uses to FOOL HIM into believing he is still in control of his "lusting": If I am the only one awake at 1 AM, it's not hurting anyone If I fantasize, it stops me from real-life acting ou...

I've been listening to the Charlie and Joe Big Book workshop. It's been great supplementary listening to Duvid Chaim's group, and helps me understand things better. While listening to the chapter, "We agnostics," I was struck with a different idea of Hashgacha Pratis. I ...

I have 41 days sober today. How do I do it? I pray. I rely on G-d, always realizing that lust is more powerful than me and it is only through His strength that I can stay sober. I go to lots of SA meetings. I have a sponsor who I call almost every day. I call others in th...

R' Duvid Chaim, First, thank you. Second, thank you. And of course, third... and onwards. And as you said, the program is not about lust. As a byproduct of getting rid of resentments and fears, lust disappears. I am certainly not cured, but I can sense that the promises o...

1. We admitted we were powerless over lust--that our lives had become unmanageable.2. We came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.3. We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him. 4. We...