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"Think Good" wrote on the forum: I am concerned that I may let my guard down after making it past 30 days . "London" answered: Hi Think Good, I have been told at SA meetings, that if I have one eye on yesterday and one eye on tomorrow, then I am cross eyed on today. Yest...

"ShomerAiyin" posted on the forum: Sorry to burst everyone's pre-Shavuot highs, but I'm having a bit of a crisis. I don't know how to internalize everything written on this site, including the 12 steps. - I've read the 2 handbooks, both the GYE Handbook and the Attitude ...

I would like to bring a few inspiring post from "London" on the forum to various strugglers. London's experience is very precious, as he has learned some solid technique in battling this relentless addiction over the years through his membership in the 12-Step fellowships...

Today is day 30 ... I have been working the SA program and been going to meetings even on chol ha'moed. The bottom line for me is that even though I have done 30 days before (albeit rarely), I have not been struggling the same way I have in the past. I have learned by wor...

We have discussed in the past how one of the foundations of the 12-Steps is learning how to "Let Go and Let G-d". Well, another major foundation of the steps that helps us find freedom from the addiction, is learning how to live for OTHERS and not be "self-centered". As o...

"Me" posted: I saw in the sefer Shomer Emunim that we can't even begin to fathom the Emunah (faith) that our forefathers had. The revelation that they had of Hashem is way beyond our grasp... BUT, Emunah P'shuta (simple faith) is our yerusha (inheritance) too, and we stil...

One of the main causes of addiction is stress and anxiety. We tend to use the addiction as an escape to make ourselves feel good when our lives feel "difficult to control". But stress and anxiety are really a result of a mistaken perception of "control"; we think that it ...

I am clean, with the help of G-d, for over fifty days. I feel a sense of some control, and I don't dread the internet like I used to. Starting a few weeks ago, I had a HUGE boost in self esteem and self confidence. I do not know with certainty that my improved spirit is a...

I know I can't do 90 days!!! I'm not kidding. Nevertheless, it has been 11.5 years of knowing that so far, and still sober. I am not strong, and charts do nothing for me either, but a chevra does, and so do the 12-steps. Life is getting better every year o...

Today I want to share some big Yesodos that I learned from Dov. (If anyone has experience with what really works, it's Dov. Once a slave to an all-consuming lust addiction, Dov is now sober for over 18 years! See Dov's story here). It often takes a lot of trying and faili...

"Ovadia" posted on the forum: Hi, I am joining the forum for the first time today. I am married and we have B"H a number of children. I spent ten years in Kollel. After ten years learning, I had to leave full time learning for parnasa reasons and work in an office. The in...

Thank you GYE! I want you to know that I've only fallen once in watching inappropriate things since I joined GYE about 4 months ago. I can't believe it myself, and although I still fall occasionally with mast**, this is tremendous growth I never dreamed of. I used to act ...

I went to a work related seminar in NYC and had the misfortune of sitting next to an improperly dressed woman. Afterwards I went outside and was hit with billboards that keep getting worse. It can't be any clearer that they're not trying to sell a product, they're simply ...

You're not to blame.Hashem has given us an illness.Simple as that.You were handed today's fall.He gave us this sickness because if we approach it correctly, it can lead us to the greatest heights!!Through the sickness & From the sickness!You're not a bad person.Chas v...

First of all, I'd like to explain why I probably fell. I am pretty sure it is stress related and I was trying to escape the pressures of the stress. Second order of business is, to explain the two reasons why perhaps it was necessary for me to fall:1) I needed a reality c...

Looking back at the times that I've fallen (or felt a very strong pull towards falling), I had always been in a very uneasy state of mind. Maybe I was restless, or irritable, or discontent. Maybe I was feeling tired, stressed out, lonely, angry, or anxious. Or maybe it wa...

Something I've noticed lately of myself, maybe you're the same...When my mind is trying to convince me to act out, white will seem like black, up will seem like down, etc. I have found that I am powerless against this addiction. It doesn't matter how strong any kabbalah I...

When I started posting on GYE and then shortly afterwards joined SA, I desperately wanted to stop masturbating and to stop looking at pornography. I knew that sexual lust was a problem, but I was not especially concerned with it as a problem in its own right. If I could j...