Just figured how to get past the next filter.... ;-(

I'm feeling=ng so low now. I gatta get up and put it together.

Hold in there, my friend! You are Hashem's precious child, He's waiting for you to get up and fight your way to Him! Get yourself a new filter, and stop testing them. Or get web chaver. Keep trucking, and let us know how you are doing!

porn porn porn.........rabbit hole          blue whale valley....is more like it

Hey the guy full of love and hugs is back! I missed you !! Now here’s a big geshmakah HUG from me!! Hope you get yourself back on track and stop the watching and continue giving us all the inspiration you always give!!
love ya! 
gut shabbos!!

porn masturbation, confusion, loneliness and more confusion. #day 1.

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​I'm crying and I'm falling apart emotionally. This complex trauma journey feels like a tunnel with no light at the end.  

I have no words…. But I can cry along with you.( I am my heart goes out for you). I really Hope you have a full yishuah bekriv! And see the light at the end of the tunnel speedily…
Love you! Miss you!

HUG!! No words:cry:

My dear Friend, HB, I will never forget that when I joined here you were from the first people that posted words of encouragement. Words that still reverberate today! Why, half of my thread is your posts! My friend, my heart goes out for your pain, please don't go it alone, reach out to someone who can offer help. I have you in my teffilos

Oh my brother! I feel your pain, I really do.
I know what it’s like to be so in pain that you just want to feel anything else but pain. And then you use something that causes more pain but you are stuck in that whirlpool and can’t get out of it. It’s a insane situation to be in. 
however, instead of just sending you my love and heart. I will be a bit brutal but it’s because I care and I want you to get out of this mess. So let me tell you this, and please forgive me.
GET OFF THE INTERNET! Completely! Unplug yourself. Get rid of all of your internet connected devices. You don’t need to thro them away, just give them to someone that you trust. As long as you have this drug lying around, you can’t fight or resist, it’s too easy to fall. First you gotta do a detox! Get it out, let your brain start to wear off the affects of this drug! It will not be easy and you might still fall with masturbation, but it Will be a Huge change for the better, I promise you. 
your brain will slowly start to heal, you will feel so much better after 90 days without any filth. You will feel so pure you will be high on purity!  
I’m not saying that you need to stay off everything, maybe you need to work and do something constructive on the internet, but not at home or in your pocket. You can go to a kosher Internet cafe where others are and it’s safe. 

I know it sounds insane and it’s not reasonable. But think about this, are you not willing to do this little sacrifice to safe your future? To feel better? Closer to Hashem? Close to yourself? If you answered yes to any of this, then this is the way! I tried everything else and I was in the same boat as you, until I took this step, that changed my life, and Everything g started moving in a new direction afterwards.

please please try it once, I promise you, you will not regret it!

Brutal but still think about it, it can change your life. One day at a time.

The journey continues. I'm learning so much more about how my problem isn't masterbation and porn but rather pain. Trying to force myself to not watch porn and masterbate doesn't help the pain go away. 

It's like taking a sick guy who is throwing up and advising him, that the way to get better and avoid throwing up, is to tape your mouth shut so the throw up doesn't come out. 

Dealing with the throw up is forcing a solution on a problem that originates from a totally different place and needs a totally different solution. 

taping our mouths shut won't take away our illness, taping our penises shut through self judgment and force won't take away our pain. 

it's time for us to deal with the pain.

I agree with you 100%. 
I started therapy again recently, i told the therapists where im up to now. But im in more pain, i thought being in this place, i will be happy. 
So he said, that all i did was to remove my main coping mechanism, and now the pain is looking for another way to manifest itself. 
I dont want to discourage anyone here, but my mind has definitely gotten worse when i stopped P and M. Why am i saying this? Because if you are in pain and struggling with P and M, you must seek help. Just quitting this addiction will not really ease your pain. 
Same goes with any addiction, people turn to trugs or alcohol or lust in order to escape the pain, it doesn't help but rather creates a new problem that needs to be solved. 
When they finally quit the addiction, they still need to treat the pain. 
So quit this addiction, but also see a professional if you are in pain.