Here I go, this will be the spot for my journey to 90 days! I'm excited to finally start. Its my first time legitimately trying to stop masturbating and calling phone sex lines to listen to the recordings (and occasional porn when I have access).

Whatever my ETA is, 90 days is my destination.
I will hopefully post every day. Any feedback is appreciated.

I usually have a really hard time with phone sex lines when I'm in bed and going to sleep, which has always ended in masturbation. This is especially when I have a hard time falling asleep. 

See you down the road- enjoy the ride! #HashemWillHelpMe.#MyFatherMyKingMyLoveAndHeLovesMeToo

Im at 4 days! over halfway to my first goal!

WOW keep trucking along with everyone here, 
welcome aboard and join the flight

5 days peoples. Doesn't feel like much, as I've done 5 days many times before but its onward to 6 then 7 which will be my first goal on the way to 2 weeks will be my first real accomplishment.

6 days! one more and then I hit my first goal.  Still feel that I don't have much pressure not to masturbate because I've done 7 many times. but after this week iyh I'm going to be in territory that I don't remember ever being in, so that's my excitement and my encouragement to get towards 14. 

1Weeeek! 7 days clean BH. My first goal is now in the past. Onward to week 2 and 14 days! I BH havent had any serious nisyosos yet but friday/shabbos is usually hard for me and i passed the first one on my journey. I know there will be nisyonos though, so davening hard to pass them when they come. 

Keep it up tzaddik!

 8 days! We are now officially in exciting territory. Im honestly a little nervous that when the first nisayon comes im going to be swept away. But i havent called any sex lines which has been something i used to do quite often, So i guess i am passing some nisyonos.

Human being wrote on 10 Jan 2022 15:36:

9 days clean! Almost double digits! cant wait!

Going through a hard time today because of certain feelings. I want to masturbate to soothe myself. And it makes me scared not to ejaculate when i feel a real urge to, but I'm not going to. that's it. I will learn that I'll be ok. (Btw i don't really believe in what I'm saying, i am worried that ill get too nervous and will fall) 

my apologies; i received a message, so i deleted my last post.

10 days guys!!! my record is around 15 days so I'm very excited! ( I do still have day 11 12 13 14.... before that though so i better take it day by day.)

Last night was the first time in years that I had urges to call a sex line and it wasn't an hours long battle.
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For the first time in years the battle only lasted 5 min before I fell asleep without messing up. Usually its an hour long battle where I end up giving up out of exasperation because I tell myself " I'm going to end up giving up either way, I might as well give up now and not lose out so much sleep" 

​Last night I told myself right away  "I will NOT end up giving up at the end of this fight. I don't do this anymore". Right after I told myself that my urges subsided and I fell asleep. 

​Thank you Hashem I love you!!

keep going strong we're all with you

If you have good music that you like you can try putting that on at night. (For me, anytime I feel any urge, my automatic response is to put on music ( or a shiur if I’m holding by that)).

Human being wrote on 12 Jan 2022 18:20:

Absolutely incredible! That's a tremendous Chizuk for me. Thank you!