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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 13:48 #16547

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Uri, I think I'll be repeating your name a lot during Ne'ilah... All the prosecuting angels will flee when they hear your name!


i also have had enough of falling by myself i have my finger on the phone waiting to call a girl which i know for certain will lead to sex tonight/today.


Sinning with someone live is very serious. It's an Issur Kares (Nidda), and even touching "derech chiba" is ye'hareg ve'al ya'avor, since that is "abizraya de'arayos" (Rambam)... Now I'm not here to give mussar or try to sound scary, but in the book "the first day of the rest of my life" by R' Shraga (and I sent you the quote before), he suggests drawing red lines, conquering one territory at a time. Please Uri, make sinning with other girls your red line, Uri. We all believe that you can do that. Count 90 days clean in that territory, and then you can move on to conquer more territory. Can you take this upon yourself now, in front of us all, here on the forum, your brothers and sisters who love you, before Rosh Hashana??? Can you do it?? Go Uri, Go! Make the announcement and we'll throw a party!!!! :D :D :D
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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 14:40 #16571

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Dear Uri,

We're all rooting for you, and hope you are doing well. 

The best thing you can do now is to set up Gedarim to help you for the future.  In other words, whatever tripped you up this time, take steps to ensure that it doesn't happen again.
Just as an alcoholic needs to avoid that first sip, a lust addict needs to avoid that first slip.Slip today? No way! ;)Fall today? No way, Jose'!
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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 14:46 #16572

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that's it, i can't go to sleep anymore. ever. either that, or i have to move to eretz yisroel, because as soon as i got to bed this whole commotion blew up!
Uri, I'm so so proud of you that you didn't call a girl, and that you went for a walk, and that you turned off your computer! I almost started crying when i read what was going on here.

you are seriously amazing. the koach that that took... wow.

and just realize how much everyone loves you and wants you not to fall! every single one of the people who called you, and some who didn't, are all rooting you on!
yasher koach uri!
btw- what's with a filter? do you have one?
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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 14:46 #16573

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YOU CAN DO IT URI! WE BELIEVE IN YOU! i'm crying for you! please believe in yourself!
I am proud of myself today because of who I am becoming with progress, not perfection
one day at a time
I am a pickle, and I'll never be a cucumber again. and pickles are YUM!

my thread: guardyoureyes.com/forum/6-Women-on-the-way-to-90-Days/248941-Letakains-internet-addiction-journal
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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 16:25 #16630

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Nu Uri, we're waiting for the commitment? Chicken?    I already bought the balloons, streamers and Woodford. Just need you to say, "yeh, I guess I can do that" - and this place BLOWS!
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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 17:50 #16646

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I think someone said Uri will be off the computer for the day.
Just as an alcoholic needs to avoid that first sip, a lust addict needs to avoid that first slip.Slip today? No way! ;)Fall today? No way, Jose'!
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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 20:53 #16710

  • jerusalemsexaddict
Guard,
After carefully considering your offer
and after consulting with mom at length on the matter,
I accept you challenge.
My red line now is officialy no physical contact with girls.
That includes anything from hugging to sex.
No matter how low I fall,that is my limit.
Happy?
-uri
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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 21:02 #16715

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Uri,

it's great to hear your voice
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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 21:07 #16719

  • jerusalemsexaddict
thanks yechida
i should be posting,i know
but im very tired and im trying to collect my thoughts
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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 21:24 #16727

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Uri wrote on 08 Sep 2009 20:53:

Guard,
After carefully considering your offer and after consulting with mom at length on the matter, I accept you challenge. My red line now is officialy no physical contact with girls. That includes anything from hugging to sex. No matter how low I fall,that is my limit.
Happy?
-uri

Dear Uri -
Hatzlocha. You know how they take druggies off their drugs in inpatient detox and keep them in a place where they have no access to any? They can't use, so their mind clears. They don't really get any better of course, they just get a temporarily clear head. The part they don't tell us is that it hurts a lot. All the crapola that they/we use our drug preoccupations to escape from comes to the surface. I guess that you are well aware of this.
If you (like most of us) still harbor some belief that you are just a guy and not really using women and lust to escape from life as you know it (ie, the crapola), then here you will have a great petri dish to test the validity of that theory in!
When faced without our familiar relief valve, we either cave in and use so we can stay in our internal secret la-la land, find another valve, or we go a bit nutsoid. It's like Terach getting his idols smashed up. Look out, Avrameleh!
We all need help then, and lots of it. Not just to make it through, but to face the truth so we don't need to go back when the magic "90 days" or whatever, is over.
So ask for it.
Love you,
Dov
"Off the 18-wheeler and fine on this tricycle!", "I do not particularly care exactly which "lav" suicide is. I'm not interested in it for other reasons...and you are probably the same."
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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 21:41 #16736

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Uri, have been following ur post for over a month. What an inspiration you are!!!

I felt the need to wish you hatzlacha on keeping hold of your territory. It belongs to you now!!
Hatzlacha!!!!!!!!!
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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 21:42 #16737

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Uri, I have real tears in my eyes! I LOVE YOU.

GUYS - it's PARTY TIME!
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Last Edit: 08 Sep 2009 21:56 by leongye.

Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 21:46 #16738

  • jerusalemsexaddict
You guys are so amazing
i was so touched when i read the last 2 pages
thats why i couldnt respond until now
i was at a loss for words
mom contacted me today (she doesnt do that often)
apparently she received several SOS's for me
these 2 pages are gonna be something that will be mechazek me for a while
i will return to them when im down iy'h
my heart feels very full now

I was drowning
no way to get out
I was losing air,
water in my mouth.

I see my friend,
smiling his familiar smile.
Help me brother,
but he just watched me with a look that was vile.

I realized at that moment,
that he put me here
I was gonna die a fool,
betrayed by my dear.

I thought my final thoughts
as the water covered me.
I thought what life couldve been,
what it was meant to be.

But now I would die,
drowned by own love.
I gave him my heart,
instead of to the one above.

But as my head went under
I sensed movement up high
A hand reached down,
and called to me with a cry.

I didnt have strength left
to reach for my life.
But the person just reached down
cut the cords with a knife.

As I was pulled up,
I realized who my savior was.
It was momo my friend,
who did what an angel does.

I understood what had happened
as i was drawing my last breath.
My friends who I love so much
had come and fought lust to the death.

He had run away screaming
"these people are nuts!!"
I hugged them all tightly
"now whose in the dust?"
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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 21:49 #16739

  • jerusalemsexaddict
wow i am exhausted
rhyming is hard!
pass the woodford guard
did u order chulent?
i dont care its tuesday night!!
youre making the party for me no?
so we need chulent.
wow this stuff is strong
do we have any chasers?
uch superdrink??!!
you call this a party?
wheres rav shlachter?
did u invite him?
o man guard?whats the deal?!
no chulent,no rav shlachter,superdrink
shver man
when i hit 90 i want this to be better prepared
just kidding guard
i know you did ur best
i love the heileger guard
our Moshe Rabbeinu
-uri
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Re: Where I'm at 08 Sep 2009 21:49 #16740

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RABBEINU RABBEINU U RAE A TZADDIK

WE CAN START THE SIMCHAS BESI HASHOEVA A MONTH EARLY

....ASHREI MI SHELO CHATTTA.......

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