I noticed you wrote that you feel you need a "Reset"...
Beware of the "Nuclear Reset" button that Dov always speaks about. (i.e. that we tend to give in under the pretext that we just need a reset, and then we'll start again fresh. That's garbage, because that's what keeps us in the cycle forever.
The best RESET, believe it or not, is simply to hold on through the tough times and not give in. That RESETS our brain over time. Not as fast as the Nuclear Reset, which allows us to suddenly "cry crocodile tears to Hashem" again about how we want to get up and do Teshuvah, but a REAL reset that LASTS.