So for you R' SSSL "The 9 days" will have a special meaning. They will be remembered forever as "The 9 days of תשפ”ד" in which you fought like a lion to stay clean, in which your life took a turn to a path of true greatness!! 

Keep up your great work!
You're an inspiration! 

Day 9 thank god clean. Pretty easy because I wasn't out much.

Though its only 2 PM right now i want to post for accountability. I do see urges coming to masturbate and I really want to stay clean at least till tomorrow (ODAAT). So posting this I see as a help. Thanks for hearing me out, feel free to give me a thank you to show your support. Right now I am going outside to spend my day I pray that I pass the test!

.הנני העני!
.Today i had not one fall to masturbation but two
.Though I did have a terrible day I think if I think about it too much I wont want to continue fighting
.So I proudly say that I am back to fight and in my dreams I hope the next intentional hotzaas zera will be after my chasuna
.I WILL KEEEP TRUCKING
.And I am happy to add (as an edit) that I ordered myself a copy of the battle of the genaration

stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 15 Aug 2024 00:09:

You might have been an עני for a few moments today, but hey, look what an עושר you are, you're getting right back up and ready to fight like a צדיק!
שבע יפול צדיק וקם
You're doing amazing brother... 
And well done for getting that book, it changes your whole perspective of this Nisayon.
You're a step closer to total victory!

Keep us posted..

Day 1 clean. Had a great day, would love to elaborate but its almost 4 am.

Ps its poshut to me if I would have carried yesterday's fall with me today I would have fell again.

Good night. 

Those are fighting words, and words of wisdom!!
Chazak Vamatz! 

Rooting for you, 
Chaim 

Day 2 clean and easy thank g-d. Was very busy so no boredom and time for urges.
Hope to keep going even when it gets hard.
A gut shabbos nachamu!

Edit: Had a fall to M on friday night.

Day 1 clean.

Do you have an idea what could have triggered your fall on Friday night?
And have you tried F2F program yet? Its really amazing.. Worth giving it a go...

upanddown wrote on 18 Aug 2024 01:22:

I do know the trigger but I don't want to announce it here. I would PM you though my PM's dont work right now.
Regarding F2F I don't really get what it is. Its a series of videos?

Day 2 Clean had some big urges at the end of the night and very happy that I was able to get it out of my head and stay clean.

Also happy to announce, I will hopefully get a hold of TBOTG very soon and I hope to read it.

Day 3 Clean.

Day 4 with Gods help Clean.

It's been a bumpy day 5 and 6 but I am happy to say I made it through without M. Whatever the cause of the bumps were I am proud that I got rid of the gorem (hopefully!). Regarding P yesterday was day 21 clean.