Another day Clean!

Today came with some obstacles. Something triggered me a few hours ago and I really wanted to act out, BH I made it till now clean. I won't say I won because I simply had no access to act out to my urges. But thank God I am still clean.

PS Knowing myself I have a while left to my night so I hope to finish it clean!

stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 19 Nov 2024 22:04:

Dude. Don't negate your wins. You are awesome! 

Unless you've somehow removed your hands, mind, and male organ, you had access to act out. You chose not to. That is amazing!

Keep on surviving and living and trucking!
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chosemyshem wrote on 19 Nov 2024 22:24:

Truth is I wasn't down to masturbate so there goes your post. Sorry.

Still Clean thank God!

I had very strong urges to do something I've never done and would have been crossing a red line of mine. I spoke it out with an amazing GYE'er and after a long and straightforward conversation he said something that really hit me. He said along the following lines, if you do this thing you are putting yourself in a position that will make your whole marriage hard. You will never be able to face your wife and truly feel she is mine and my only.

I am having a hard time putting it down on paper but when he told it to me it really hit home. Thank you!

Have a good night.

Day 15 Clean!

Thank God I didn't have any of those feelings to do bad things today.

Amazing!!! Don't stop at 15. You got this. 

stopsurvivingstartliving is an amazing guy. The honesty and courage just come shining through the posts.

Friday and Shabbos Clean!

Baruch Hashem!

Today was Clean!

Life sometime gets boring and rough and you can feel all of your chiyus zapped out of you.

Whateva

Day 19 Clean!

I made it past CHAI days! Epic!

Had a rough last few hours, did a lot of filter poking and managed to see a few seconds of porn. I am not counting it as a fall.

I am still in middle of this episode but I hope God helps me make it through clean because I don't want to.

So an update of my "episode" is: I masturbated. Felt pretty darn stupid with myself. I got out but won't say it's over. Now I have to deal with the post fall urges, not too confident I am gonna make it.

stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 27 Nov 2024 19:21:

My Brother, that must be rough.
I'm here for you Friend.

stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 27 Nov 2024 19:21:

Sorry to hear, brotha, it's tough.

You're resilient and you'll stand up, I know. 

You know where to find me (and don't take no for an answer!!!).

You fall down (twice), you get back up.

Seemingly we sometimes have to fall twice to get back up.

To the "Eyes" out there looking after me, I am sorry I let you down, though this time I am more confident to make it through the night, bez''h.

@yiftach do you really not take no for an answer? What can I get you?