One day you will reach it too. Im 100% sure. Lets be real though. It is scary!!

90 days. Thank you Hashem. Its been hard. But life transforming. The amount I've been able to grow, heal and connect because I've reached such a milestone is awesome. Thank you everyone for helping me get here! On to 91 because 90 is just 1 more day then 89 and one less then 91.  Hit that thank you button to send a Mazel Tov!

YES!!! Now that's what I'm talkin about!!
90 days for Roah Chodesh Kislev way to go!!
Whatever it is you are doing dont stop!

Human being wrote on 24 Nov 2022 20:00:


wow! מזל טוב !! לחיים!!

I first just followed your instructions and hit the thank you button to say m.t.  But then I was like I’m to excited for you and not gonna be yitzah with a hit I want to wish you a full mt!! H’ should bantch you with many more clean days weeks months dmd years and you should always be happy and make others happy! And you should find your basherter bikuriv!
גוט שבת!!

Human being wrote on 24 Nov 2022 20:00:

WOW. THAT'S AMAZING. You're an inspiration to all of us. Keep growing, keep connecting.

Keep it up tzaddik. Keep showing the world what a human being can really be.

Ok day 94 :-)

Also day 1 of not buying non Jewish newspapers. I don't have any access right now so my brain found a different "outlet" to get its sex.

Im having such a hard time today with sexulaized browsing. I'm dissociative right now because my feelings Got too hard to function with. Not feeling my feelings makes it impossible for me to connect to the emotions causing me to turn to porn, which makes me feel like I'm fighting an unwinnable battle in the dark. Im doiscoonected from my feelings and therefore dont know what to do. Im so disconnected now. It makes it impossible to turn to something else instead of porn.

sorry you are having a hard time today. i am available on the chat for a bit if that would be helpful....

Im having a terrible time today too. But not because my feeling are too hard to deal with. They are just very strong today. 
I have this terrible feeling of never being good enough for Hashem. Im begging him for months to make this Nisoyen easier and to help me with my mentel health and when i dont see immediate relief i get all depressed like whats the point? 
​Im up to my 160 something day and i feel terrible. I was alos looking for bad stuff online. But Thank Hashem for the best filters. so i wasnt able to find anything. but now feel crappy for even trying and for seeing some small bad things. Im very hypersensitive and i find almost everything arousing. Im feeling very lost as well. I wanna give up so badly but i know ill feel even worse afterwards. 
So im sucking it up and pushing it thru. 
Keep up the good work inspiring us. It helps knowing that others are going thru the same. 

hashem is the one who created these urges and he knows how hard it it. even when you don't see or feel it, he is there with you in the battle. He has tremendous nachas from when you keep pushing through.

we feel for you and look up to you!

best wishes
vehkam

chancy wrote on 28 Nov 2022 21:18:

omg going through the same things, i did some sexulaized browsing saw some "lower level stuff" and now feel like crap. In order to escape the crappy feeling my brain is pushing me to escape to.....porn. But now that i know what im fighting against im going to have an eisier time fighting. So i gatta leave the computer NOW. Bye see you tom.

Hey, @chancy and @human being…we are all pulling for you. Stay strong!!!

Hey it’s so funny ( not so ) I’m also going through hell today… I didn’t have the urges I’m having today in weeks I’m going crazy… I wasn’t planning on posting abt it ( I’m in bad mood ) but after I saw two of my close friends are going through similar and posted abt it I’ll do the same… basically home all day not feeling well- depressed in bed also did some small things to stimulate myself nothing to bad but that broke a kablah that I made not to do anything that will stimulate myself so I got in even in a worse mood and than someone left me a voicemail with sharp words that just turned me off more… ( not your fault, but I respect you  and hearing from that you don’t like something I do on the forum made me feel bad, whatever- you know who you are ) but I’m not doing anything cause if hb and chancy are controlling themselves then I want to be a winner with them and not be the only loser around here… and also I can’t do it to my wife i made up my mind I won’t cheat on her again ( whatever) thx hb and chancy I probably would be deep in the mud if not for your two posting….

Geshmak! wrote on 29 Nov 2022 01:31: