One month for the first time BH!
I've found a strategy that works very well for me and I will lay it out here.
There is as youtube video I heard about that is basically a documentary about what went on in the concentration camps of the Nazis during world war two. Here's the link to it:
youtu.be/xy_xWKJubuY
It contains some very very very graphic imagery (and there is a part you need to skip over where it shows women taking showers), but I decided to watch the whole thing about a month ago at this point. My current strategy is, whenever I feel an urge coming on, to think about the scenes I saw in this documentary or watch parts of it again if I can't remember well enough. The documentary was so graphic and so terrifying that thinking about it for even 10 seconds is enough to basically wipe out my urge instantly. The pictures are scary, but they are much better than immodest pictures in my head. The documentary also has helped me develop better yirat Shamayim as it basically depicts Gehinnom on earth. On top of that, some of the people in the camps who died in these awful ways were people like Rav Wasserman, tzaddikim of their generation. If they died in such in awful way, how much more so should we be afraid of the consequences of our actions if we can't pick ourselves up and to teshuva!
The documentary really is very scary, but it has helped me a lot over the past month and I certainly would not have been able to go 30 days without watching it. Let me know if this strategy works for anyone...
thetimeisnow!
