This time I'm going to do it. I fell over the Yom Tov since I had no one to talk to and motivate me so that was hard.

But I am very motivated now!

Had to go back to base camp (17,900 ft) because of altitude sickness but I have loaded up with more oxygen and am ready to fight to the top once more!https://lh3.googleusercontent.com/proxy/Ea2wAHF6zB3d4cAoqCM5eMMwvHR3j9x4QaOc8FD4vJnK0rEO4r_i4_JMLIqHP1zhB7f488f1j-LChEO6Nzs60I5FoeIz4-jJ9R2oU9PGM3LIJf76lltIwAQ7svWEDO8aAaxE-0Wdig

Day 4, its time to get serious

You can do this

Baruch Hashem

Day 6

You've been here before

Time to make this happen

Tomorrow is a week

Don't make the same mistakes

6.667% of the way there!

Baruch HaShem

Keep it up! 
You can do this!

I plan on it! Thank you for the support! Every word of encouragement counts.

The way I see it, which may or may not be true, everyone who gives me words of encouragement, it is as if they take a part in the accomplishment of me beating this desire. So thank you very much!

Day 9 BH, tonight will be day 10

I am so excited to beat this.

Surprisingly, I haven't had any strong urges yet.

Something I did after my last fall was to put a bunch of motivational signs on the walls of my room so that I wouldn't forget about my goal. So far it has worked!

That is such a good idea!! By putting up signs like those in your room it's like you're surrounding yourself with positivity. So no matter what else you go through, you'll always have that positivity to remind you that everything will be OK. Keep on climbing! I hear the view is beautiful at the top

Thanks haha, it has worked great for me! I was originally going to put up pictures of Tzaddikim but I couldn't get access to a printer, so instead I covered my room in motivational handwritten signs

Day 10 BH

"Surely, this Instruction which I enjoin upon you this day is not too baffling for you, nor is it beyond reach.

It is not in the heavens, that you should say, “Who among us can go up to the heavens and get it for us and impart it to us, that we may observe it?”

Neither is it beyond the sea, that you should say, “Who among us can cross to the other side of the sea and get it for us and impart it to us, that we may observe it?”

No, the thing is very close to you, in your mouth and in your heart, to observe it.

See, I set before you this day life and prosperity, death and adversity."

Devarim 30:11-15

Hashem wouldn't give us a test we couldn't pass.

YOU can do this!

Can't wait for this to be behind me

Day 12 BH

I am very surprised how few urges I've had so far. Not to jump the gun, but this time around as been...eerily easy. I hope the YH isn't waiting for me around the corner...

On the other hand, maybe my no tolerance strategy is working. Basically that means that I try my best not to look or touch down there, and I do everything possible to switch the topic in my mind when something immodest pops in there. Its hard work and annoying, but I think it is starting to pay off.

Also, this is day 80 for me from pornography so that is cool. Know that it is possible! I never thought I could break free from those websites, but here I am!

thetimeisnow! wrote on 08 Apr 2021 13:55:

I can't say he definitely is, but I could say that he probably is...just be prepared.

Very impressive about the no porn for 80 days!
Great job!
Keep it up!

Btw what happened with your geirus?
Are you part of klal Yisroel yet? It sounds funny writing that to someone, not sure why, I guess I don't deal with geirim too often ...

HappyYid

I have many fences in place to fight the YH so BH I will be successful.

As for quitting porn, at a certain point I became so attached to the timer on my phone that counted the hours since I had last watched anything immodest that I actually became afraid to watch porn (however, I still have urges, its just that I am able to overcome them much easier now that I can see how long I can go without it).

My geirus are still in place, if you want I can send a copy of them to you!

And I am not part of the Jewish nation yet, BH that will happen this summer! I am very excited

thetimeisnow!

Very very impressive stuff geirus

For most people the YH is def there just depending on how far in a lot of people find that the hardest stretch is around days 25-40

It totally is worth the effort

My YH knocked on the door yesterday and I had an absolutely huge urge. However, I reminded myself that Hashem would be watching me if I sinned, and that was very embarrassing to think about, so I ultimately was able to make it through.

thetimeisnow! wrote on 09 Apr 2021 13:58:

This is very inspiring. Classic example of true Yiras Shamayim. 
​Some people claim that they are powerless to stay clean (I'm not trying to tear down the concept of powerless in the 12 step program)  but if a person would stand right near them they wouldn't sin then... 

Imagine hidden cameras monitoring your progress through life. The whole world is watching. People cheer when you succeed and boo when you fail.

With all those people staring, won't you be careful with every move? Won't your motivation to succeed increase tremendously?

Walk with a constant awareness of Hashem. Fear of Hashem gives you full freedom. Nothing will stand in your way. The dog is insignificant compared to fear of Hashem. You just push right ahead. You're free from all other fears. You have turned yourself into a pure conduit for the will of Hashem.

The Talmud says: "Everything is in the hands of heaven – except for fear of God." Fear of God is completely up to us. If you want it, you've got it.

But there's a question on this point. In our daily prayers we say, vi'ti'tain lanu chaim she'yesh bahem yirat shamayim v'yirat chet. We specifically ask the Almighty to give us "fear of God." But if "fear of God" is in our hands, why do we ask God to give it?

The answer is that everything, of course, depends on the Almighty. We can't lift a finger without God. With most things, you can yearn deeply and still not attain it. You can desire to be a millionaire so badly that you work 80 hours a week and stand on your head – and you can still die a pauper.

But fear of God is different. It's the only thing that, "if you really want it, you've got it." With everything else, God may evaluate that your request is not good for you. But fear of God is the one thing the Almighty won't withhold if you truly desire it, because it's the one thing that always brings you into reality. It's always good for you.

If you really want it, it's yours.