guardureyes wrote on 20 Dec 2009 18:44:


Hi Reb Guard,

The lyrics are from a Rage Against the Machine song callled No Shelter, the words are pretty interesting but the last few words are the ones that I think are the most meaningful, and here they are:

American eyes, American eyes
View the world from American eyes
Bury the past, rob us blind
And leave nothin behind

Just stare!
Just stare!
Just stare!
Just stare!

and live the nightmare!

I'm clean now over a week!

Thanks,
Haba

Holy Yid wrote on 20 Dec 2009 17:51:


HI Holy YId,

Thanks for your suggestion, but the problem is that I have all sorts of deadlines some of them requiring me to email stuff in before a certain time, and I often find myself working on projects well into the night! If I just obey a curfew and go to bed, I'm in serious trouble the next day. On top of that, it is usually stuff I can't do during the day because I'm so busy! I need 29 hour days!!!!

Haba

7!!!

The holy number 7! The truth is that this week is easy because I'm away on a trip for the week AND around people all the time (otherwise business trips are the WORST possible time for an addict!)

I should easily hit 11 days, because of the trip, but when I get home the battle is on!! I won't be able to post much, cuz most of my internet on this trip is limited and I'm doing all my email and whatnot from my Blackberry.

My Goals for next week: (Dec 27-Jan2) Get K9 on my home CPU and laptop!!!

Help me out!!

Haba

Hi everybody,

I hit 8 today and just got a new prize on my 90 day chart, i moved from the ribbon to the nifty crown with the words chazak chazak on it!

I'm also getting a little lonely on my blogeleh, no one comes to visit me or comments anymore

Let's make it to 9. Right now I'm in a hotel room on the west coast and really tempted to surf, but not like the surfers I saw today on the beach who are always surfing back toward home, but the kind of surfing that leads you away from everything that is good and healthy in your life!!!

Ha-shem, please stay with me here!!!!

Haba

Yoe are not alone haba, i'm here and everyting is OK. 
we did a deal, and going to fulfil it.
90 days for 3 of us. you, steve and me.

now as you alone , you are not alone !!
if you fill the YH comes strong, than take your self very far away from the computer,
and dont forget we have a deal. OK?

you can run or something,
for us.

Getting far from my computer aint that easy for me... I'm kind of attached to it by the hip. I've got a USB cord running from my hand into the jump drive and when I'm away for too long it starts to itch...

I know, the alcoholic thinks he's attached to the bottle at the hip, but this is different. Why? Because it's not really...

I know I need to figure out a way to keep myself away from a screen more, but I'm having a very hard time setting up real boundaries...

But I will try to stick to our little deal (It's amazing it is working already, I was about to throw in the towel, especially because my laptop has no filter YET,) but I saw your post and said that's right. Steve, One Life and I have a date together with a 90 day crown in the near future and I can't be late!!

Thanks

Don't you have a filter???  >
why?
i think the K9 is free, so why not?
filter is the first step of breaking free. i recommend you to install it on your laptop , and the most important thing is not to check if it "does his job" properly. 
you can let the guardureyes the password and continue  your 90 days safer. (check the procedure how to do that)
i have filter on my computer at my work, i blocked any search engine even google.
actually i don't have internet except  my favorite sites list.

there is no choise for breaking free.

Sorry Haba i just saw your shout-out. Hope your enjoying youself on the west coast. Kosher enjoyment i mean. Anyways , yeah my thread gets lonly alot too. But hey you can go onto others to see wher the action is at. Keep rocking.

Dear Haba,
I finally found you! Now I'm gonna visit you and post!

Go Haba Go!
Go Haba Go!
Go Haba Go!
You can do it, one day at a time!
You can do it, one day at a time!
You can do it, one day at a time!

Watch out Y"H, here comes Haba about to roar....




Ready....







Get set........









RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:o :o :o :o :o :o :o :o : : : : : : : :

Haba, it's beautiful to watch your progress... Keep on Truckin!

What an inspiring thread. Thank you Haba.

guardureyes:
Haba, it's beautiful to watch your progress... Keep on Truckin!

Hey I heard that once?!

bardichev wrote on 25 Dec 2009 06:59:


Actually, Reb B, You were mechaven to a slogan from AA (see #16 on this page).

hava, how are you dude?
i see you continue with the good work, and thats good.
just remember we have a deal and your next mission as you have written is to install the K9 as soon as possible.
i will bli neder post after shabbat,
so shabat shalom from the holy land.
i love you all.

Hi EVERYBODY!!!!

Thanks so much for coming out and supporting!!! I started this thread 9 days ago and I'm 9 days clean!!! I can honestly say that I have benefited tremendously from this site, and I have held myself back numerous times because of it! (Like tonight for example... Every time I think of doing something or looking at something, I'm like, NOPE I can't do that, thems people at GYE care too much about me and I can't let them down!!! Ironically I find myself thinking, OK, no porn, but what about other things, maybe if I just look at other things just a step away from porn I can still keep my rating, but it is all the big bad yetzer hara man.... I'm not even sure what the threshold for a slip up or a fall is, maybe you can enlighten me...

I also appreciate that the moment I posted something about my blog getting lonely (I posted 4 posts in a row yesterday, I was really getting desperate, you all just came out of the woodworks in support, it was a huge chizzuk!!

Bardi: I don't know how you do it, but your avatars and posts just fill the forum with lightness and unstoppable simcha!! Keep on Trucking!!

Reb Gaurd: Thanks for the chizzuk, and I know I'm not towing the line just yet, but soon you will have passwords to my K9 accounts on both my CPU and laptop!! It's hard to close that door and install all these filters when you've been fall free for 9 days. Unfortunately, it is right after a fall that you have the most strength to day Enough!! Hopefully you will get mine before I fall.

Momo: I don't know how you make your oversized posts and all your special effects, but I know it makes everyone here excited, people really seem to rally around you! I can't wait for your surprise postings, and I can't wait to give a hundie to GYE in your honor. Keep Rockin in the Free world!!

One Life: I look forward to finishing 90 days together with you and Reb Steve.

Imtrying25: You just seem to be everywhere delivering chizzuk despite being confined to a walker How do you do it? Keep it up! (Also, I know that I can visit other people's threads and I have done a lot of that, but sometimes it's hard to leave a post if you don't know the person at all....)

Clear Eyes: Thanks for the chizzuk and may we all get what your name calls for. I stared at the chanukah licht long and hard (well actually not soooo long, I'm always super busy, and chanukah was no exception....) cuz they say it washes/clears your eyes.. I think GYE can help those chanaukha candles have that affect!

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR COMING OUT!!! YOU GUYS ARE REALLY KEEPIN ME CLEAN!!!
Haba