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Re: laughingman tries to count to 90........ 31 Aug 2022 00:47 #385334

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Today I got into another argument .....after wasting time on something ridiculous ( nope i did NOT mastebate, NOR did I search for porn although my Twitter could use a cleansing lol) 
I have been beastmoding away for days......tossing in between appreciation and high level, and renewed contempt and sorrow, what I wasn't paying attention to was me

Within 3 days I was severely dehydrated and overheating to the point of chronic heat exhaustion and I might have suffered a stroke if I continued, I know because I tried to donate blood and a cursory check revealed a low blood pressure and high heart rate, signs of heat stroke (no the Arab paramedic who did the check up didn't even offer me water, simply wouldn't allow me to donate, classic) [immediately after she said this, I dunno maybe I'm a hypochondriac somewhere or maybe she made me hyper aware. 
I could FEEL my heart system having fluctuations that felt unnatural and extremely dangerous, {I had recently eaten 3 small burgers, my first major meal of the day, after I prayed minchah, at about 7 pm

Re: laughingman tries to count to 90........ 06 Nov 2022 03:08 #387288

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Soo I haven't posted in a while 

400 

Thats a middle ground ballpark estimate for how many times I have Masterbated IN MY ENTIRE LIFETIME!!!!
I used to come on here in 2013 and cry and cry and say tikkun 4 times a day and sometimes got to the mikveh as many times 

In a world where people are surprised if someone can stop thinking of certain things for NOVEMBER! 

That's an achievement I didn't even realize i had till now 

But i dont rest...... I don't say I have conquered 

I regroup and refocus cause I wantvthechiwant the higher level i want all the mitzvot

I want moshiach now 
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