way to go, bro!!!

Stress is coming up, i feel its in the air already - lets find something to occupy my mind before the stress comes and my mind starts occupying me with old habits.

Exercise is a healthy stress reliever. Wishing you hatzlocha. You can do it. You are part of a strong chevra here.

Hashem Help Me wrote on 08 Mar 2017 18:41:

REAL strong chevra. We all exercise!

I felt slipping and wanted to write on the forum before the fall, but unfortunately the fall came before the writing. Time to start all over again and get more active again on the forum instead of watching stupid films, allthough not Porn but still not good to watch. I blocked it once before already but somehow it unblocked over time or i just did not go on these sites for a long time. It made me realise that i always have to be carefull - the problem is i was not even interested in watching it just came up and then i decided to finish watching it. 
But enough - what happened happened lets go forward from here, i am sure Hashem heard my Tfillos yesterday and will look after me and all of us together.

hudaugen wrote on 13 Mar 2017 16:53:

Brother, do you discuss these with your therapist

ttomorrow when i see him i will discuss it with him. 

Sorry to hear about your fall.

i meant to say - when woodford reserve has been depleted, is posting on the forum in time of duress the best move?

iits usually just a question of time when i distract myself for a couple of minutes then i an already finished working and can go home.  It's just at the end of the day and i don't want to start something new.

Sorry to hear about the fall. Distracting yourself by writing on the forum is great but reaching out to an actual person can be very helpful. Meanwhile, get up, shake off the dust, and keep on going - your attitude is very good. Continued hatzlocha!

Markz, does this woodford thing really work? Under the influence aren't we more susceptible?

Hashem Help Me wrote on 13 Mar 2017 21:07:

I don't know if that's true

The forum was a ghost house over the weekend
It seems we are less susceptible 

That was written in jest

In all seriousness
Everything in life should be done with moderation 
Woodford / Wine should be drunk 
Sex should be enjoyed

Oops - Anyone that hasn't passed 80 days should not read that!

That's awful to hear. 
After 155 days clean, it's hard to believe.
I read through your whole thread, and things seemed to be
getting better and better. 
I know there was stress too. 
But still.
If you want to, I think it would be helpful for people to understand
how. I know it would help me. Thank you. You could pm or email me,
if you prefer.

I'm sorry to hear about your fall.

People seem to have this fantasy that sobriety yesterday equals sobriety today. It doesn't.

Shlomo24 wrote on 13 Mar 2017 23:12:

Oh, how true that is! Oh how we all wish it were not! Time to face the reality - some times will be easier, and some times will be harder, but it's a lifelong journey with no vacations.

Hashem Help Me wrote on 14 Mar 2017 04:28:

Dafka vacations you need to triple your guard