There used to be a song that had the line,"pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start all ove again." Do not focus on the fall, focus on your success before the fall. No man is perfect, and we all fall in some way or another (is your fall REALLY any worse than that taken by a crooked "frum" businessman? Or a "kosher resturant owner" who sneaks unkosher meat into his establishment? )
When you fell, your fall, aside from the effects that I do not know about on those you love, is between you and the Ribbono Shel Olam. He loves you more than you can possibly understand, and his patience is infinite. Every moment you did not fall is a like a gift to Him. And every time you fall, you let Him down, as it were, but He is our Heavenly Father (Avinu sh'bshamayim) and he loves you even when you fall, and loves you for getting up and trying again.
You have developed bad habits. They are hard to break! But not impossible!
When you were a young baby and wanted to walk, you fell, and got up and fell and got up and fell and got up countless times...BUT YOU GOT UP and that is why you can walk today.
Try to have that convction a child has that wants to walk, and have the commitment that the child has to eventually walking. It is all about small steps! Every sstrp counts.
Chazak !ChazaK!
