Greetings to all who read this.
I am not clean for 25 days approx. and for the first time I really feel that I am making progress. I have been noticing times which become especially difficult for me and realizing more what it means to surrender,  ask for help and talk to others about it on this site. I read Dov’s e-mail from a few days ago and was deeply moved. He spoke about how his relationship with G-d declined so much so that he considered dropping everything. He also mentioned that for him, religion just didn’t provide the comfort he needed to get past frustration, and other issues in life. I related to this 100%. When I first started having these issues a few years back I felt (and still feel) that Hashem and the Torah just doesn’t provide me with the strength to get past hard situations. Dov mamesh hit my thoughts right on. I don’t know what to do about that. I also have been wondering what surrendering to G-d really means? And how that truthfully works. Please respond.