Just deleted the calendar and going to use one that has zero concerns bezras Hashem

Yesterday was good bH. Earlier in morning was feeling temptations but bH better now.

I need to be careful on this site. Can be very helpful but when I read detailed posts, it can evoke desires. Need to be careful what I read and how often I go on here not to get carried away.

a great day everyone as I begin day six bezras Hashem!

Day six: bH very good with tech today.

Absurd that got curious with children’s book reading kid that maybe had the something slight that could see of some form of pritzus and flipped through it to see if anything else. I got rid of the book not going to do what I’ve done in the past of spending more time “proof reading”. If I think a book a website and advertisement that came in mail could be a problem then garbage it needs to go. Proofreading is the atzas yetzer that’s succeeded many times in past with me.

going to count as still good day but again to see something questionable and then rush to see if there’s more is a major weakness of mine and need to be careful. I want a clean head and mind!!!!

I can relate to proof staring while walking on the street and seeing Jewish women dressed not modest it's hard for me to hold myself back not to look again like is she really going out like this 
One of the things that helps me is the thought that it's not my business how anyone around me is going dressed and I'll anyway not change anyone everyone has the right to go how they want and i have to control my eyes and look only where it's for my own benefit

@chizuk613613613
Keep up the growth and keep trucking!!!
HATZLACHA!!

Day 7: hope this lasts till end of day. BH great.

felt so good to take something in the mail that in past of flip through curious see what info it has secretly thinking what I may accidentally get to see, and taking straight to garbage where belongs.

I need to try and only come on here once day getting to be too much. Next week bn only once a day

have a great shabbos!

Day 8-9. BH still good. As stronger desires ebb away to certain degree now comes the next nisayon. Not to forget how easy it is to fall. How easy it is to be tempted without proper gedarim. Just because going good bH doesn’t mean I can be less careful and will remain safe. Need to continue recognizing the yetzer is strong and the aveirah is terrible so I need to continue to be very careful and alert and staying strong with positive connection to אבינו שבשמים ותורתו ומצוותיו

Day 10: great bH. Last night was close to getting too heimish and not on guard, being tired and exhausted but bH stayed fine. That is why my wifi goes off at 830…

have a good night!

Day 11 yesterday. Was overall good. Wasn’t careful and looking into something with my wife and looked at her phone to see what she was showing me and it was prepared to click on links that could be risky. I was doing it to figure out the information, so I’m going to count as staying good but it is a danger and I need to be careful. These things could easily get out of hand. Overall, I try and avoid doing anything at all on her devices being that they are not filtered.

continuing to try and be in touch with others from here which is also helping me push forward. Great line from vehkam Keep choosing what you really want.

Day 11-12. BH still good. Was on new site for something and noticed capability for trouble. Confirmed it’s unblocked, went back from the page and emailed filter requesting they block the gif access on the site. Probably shouldn’t have tested it but staying strong not to peel around at all is growth bH. Trying to remember where I want to be who’s the real me. I want to continue positive posts over her. I hope to have the zechus of helping others in these things and other areas of Yiddishkeit as well, but קשוט עצמך ואחר כך קשוט אחרים.

With the help of the One Above, planning on finishing off day 12 

Thank u so much for your post it's such an inspiration for me I am not sure if I would do the same thing if I find a website which is problematic I would maybe close it but taking action it should be blocked on the spot is something that I am not sure if I would have the strength to overcome the challenge 
Hashem should give you the strength go grow higher and higher forever 
With love AM HANIVCHAR

Amen thanks. Old me would’ve done what you said or much worse.

new me. No no no!

unfortunately seems like no way to fully block gifs on this site. Hoping my business doesn’t switch over but if yes so I’ll make sure not to be an idiot to try and check them out. Not sure what else to do. I think I’m safe but I feel like I’ve said that too often

Day 13 bH so far so good. Have a great shabbos to everyone!

Day 18: bH still good. Going to try coming on every other day. I need to continue on one hand coming in. I have a problem and need to accept that. Or else I’ll never address it. But on other hand dealing with it too much also not good. 

I want to get to point that when I’m on a site i will not be quick to notice or care to notice , think of, or remember a loophole. Loopholes to gehinom have nothing to do with me. And even when I do notice, I will easily go forward and not think for real, to click and go forward.

every time I say no I feel it getting easier and feeling more distant from this garbage.

Still good bH be in touch next week have a great shabbos everyone!