Hi guys, it's been a while since I posted and I wanted to just post how the last few months were for me
We'll start with the positive, the past 3 weeks Baruch Hashem I haven't fell once!!!! I think that's huge because it did creep into my mind a few times but I quickly distracted myself and within a short time the urge was gone. Once bout 2 days ago I had pretty bad pics at my fingertips I had such a strong urge, (the type that makes it feel like a mitzvah) and bh I got the strength at the last second to just power off. It felt bad (lacking) for a few minutes but the next day I felt so good that I was able to finally choose what I wanted. I can't remember the last time I had such a win. It sound small but it's hard to describe the feeling because for past who knows how long I couldn't go for than a few days without doing m to either p or explicit vids and now after almost 3 weeks of purity I had a solid opportunity and I even opened it for a second and still won which I find really encouraging! 

Bein hazmanim was really tough, i fell a lot to m and bh very little to p, it definitely was an improvement from sukkos but still real bad, my mindset was also way healthier which helped minimize the after affects 

The main reason I'm posting now is because I had this thought a while ago (after I started dorming) that recently  resurfaced. I'll first tell you the facts A) since I went out of town my p usage had decreased probably by close to 100 times- no exaggerations. Fact since I went out of town it became way harder to get up for shachris.

So I was thinking that maybe since I more or less am out of the p battle zone could be my next nisayon came in the form of minyan.
Now you might say, well you're with other guys who are sleeping thru so it doesn't feel so important or that now there's only 1 minyan so it's not like 2 years ago let's say where i could daven whatever time I wake up 

I Thought of that but really believe it's more than that 

So I was wondering if anyone experienced anything similar or knows if it makes sense (, or has any tips)

Thank you very much If you took the time to read this whole thing!

The clean day tracker is off, I want to update it but it doesn't let me change anything last like 10 days
So don't think I'm that big of a tzaddik 

You are a major tzaddik. May you see lots of blessings in your life. May you be granted happy life. Can I have a blessing from you?

Amen! Thank you
Hashem should shower upon you all the good blessing that exist, he should make him and the Shechinah tangible to you and he should assist you in perfecting yourself- with a positive and healthy mindset the whole way thru in every aspect of your life especially in that of kedusha!

Wow what a blessing! The same should be for you. The people on this forum are so great. Hatzlacha !!!

Hello! I'm also from the teen program and I'm still trying to figure out how to use this one. (So far, it's a bit confusing in all honesty) The formats are just way too different for me so far

But I definitely understand what you mean when you mentioned needing to see other people who you share struggles with speaking about it in a safe place, even reading your story I see similarities too my own. Helps it feel less lonely and hopeless. From my perspective if I'm not the first person ever to have a certain issue then it means someone (or a lot of someone's) out there overcame it already. 

Welcome to manhood! Yes the teen hub is so much simpler and way more developed than this forum. But its really the content and conversations that count, and what I've seen here has truly blown me away! GYE-teen and adult forums have truly taught me the definition of כאיש אחד בלב אחד, like one man with one heart, it's truly amazing how much each and every yid cares for his brother and it's really expressed right here on this holy site!!It might be beneficial for you to start your own thread and to post your story as it progresses on thereI wish you much success in your journey on this new stage of your growth!!Keep trucking!!!