I disagree. LG, lifes good.

foolie wrote on 03 Jan 2024 23:51:

I thought I had gotten my fill of sour grapes on ASY’s thread today, but…you blew it at the end. 

Oh well. 

​IIWII.

Nothing like a full day Levaya experience with 4:10+ hours of Hespeidim to provide a welcome change to the monotony of it all.....
.... or maybe not.

chaimoigen wrote on 04 Jan 2024 02:58:

mostly in Yiddish, not the native language of us Alaskans....

May Hashem help break your monotony by sending you your shiduch asap, and who knows, maybe she speaks Yiddish with an Alaskan accent?

Today was a very emotionally draining day, already by lunch i was feeling down, speaking with hechochma the illustrious non-porn-watcher helped, but second seder set me back to square one. I was feeling knocked out and thought that a fall was inevitable, especially because i had multiple hours free. I needed something to keep me busy. My roommates had all either left or where leaving soon to go back home for shabbos, compounding the feeling of being alone. And then the idea to just write on here was placed in my mind. Hence the assorted ramblings on the public chats. (sorry to anybody who may have questioned my sanity at any point) but it worked, and here i am, another clean day, another clean week. 
wishing everybody a good shabbos 

ainshumyeiush wrote on 05 Jan 2024 07:03:

I’m seriously inspired. 
Thank you for showing us that “inevitable” is a lie. That connection helps. That you (we) may be stronger than we think, even when emotionally knocked out. Wow. 

I’ll second the previous motion on the request for HKBH to send that Shidduch asap. 

Good Shabbos! 

admiringly, 
Chaim

Day 27
im going home tomorrow. And every since last time i was home, my house is actually the place where i dont watch porn. Its not even a possibility. Not me, not there, not anywhere. And definitely not on any of the devices i dont use. In fact the only videos that i watch, there or anywhere, are the flight to freedom ones. Are the devices filtered you might ask, well i wouldn't know, because i dont use them. 
i still plan on working out a comprehensive plan, and it will be a more challenging situation than my regular day, but i have no doubt that i can do it. 
on a different note, what are everyone's thoughts about adding reasons for using porn to my list of reasons for not using porn? I.e. these are the reasons why yes, but look at all of the overriding reasons why not. The mishna in pirkie avos 2:1 says "havay mechashav hefsed mitzva k‘neged sechara, u‘sechar avaira k‘neged hefsayda" im assuming that means to not ignore the fact that there is a gain by doing wrong, but realize that yes, it is enjoyable, but its still not worth it. Not that its just "ich, we dont do that" 

ainshumyeiush wrote on 11 Jan 2024 05:16:

I wouldn't write about sexual fantasies and pleasures as they are forbidden to think about and entertain but I would write down the situations, thoughts and emotions that caused you to watch porn so you can make a list of alternative responses from the GYE toolbox.

30!!!

Mazel Tov!!!

To many more 30's!!!

ainshumyeiush wrote on 11 Jan 2024 05:16:

Congrats on 30! It’s a big milestone. Many more! 

 I very much would encourage doing what you described above. We can’t honestly be thinking about how NOT to engage in behaviors if we aren’t being honest about what we get from those behaviors that cause us to want to turn to them… 

You are for real, friend. 

ainshumyeiush wrote on 14 Jan 2024 05:41:

wow!!
thanks for the good news!