Oh man I can imagine how hard it is when you decide to change and a few days later fall in again.Here's a hug.I would mention that for no reason should you think your back to square one. Your really really not. You made the brave move of putting on a filter which can be murderous for someone who used porn as a pacifier. Thats a massive step. Close your eyes and think for a few seconds how special you are for doing it.Regarding your fall and moving on I would mention that we want to and wish that once we decide to change and are determined to there won't be any bumps on the way. Therefore when we fall we think we are toasted oats.A better approach is to look at yourself as someone who made a 180 turn on the highway towards the right way. Look at a fall as taking a wrong exit. All you got to do is get back on the highway. You aren't heading in the opposite direction.Wishing you much luck moving on and please keep us posted.

My friend, do yourself a big favor, and don't just chat with iwantlife, pick up the phone and call him! Connect to some of the good guys here and you'll see yourself in places you never imagined!
Hatzlacha!
Oh, and keep trucking!

Gut Moed everyone,
Thank you for all your responses! Maybe after sukkos I’ll start reaching out to people over phone, but now is probably a busy time. Just had a very close call. It was late at night and I suddenly got an urge. It was so strong and I felt like I had to give in. BH I got my devices filtered so I didn’t fall immediately but I still knew there were other unfiltered devices at home. I went searching for them, but they were in a room where someone was sleeping so I couldn’t go in. I felt like I was possessed and I went roaming around the house looking for some device I could get my hands on. I felt like I just needed to do it. BH after about an hour of this I couldn’t find anything and I decided to give up. After that I realized how silly this all was. I looked at myself in the mirror and I said you’re better than this, you can control yourself, you don’t need to give in. Now I am lying in the sukkah in the Tzila D’Himnusa and I feel like Hashem protected me tonight and helped me not fall. I have more confidence that I can be strong in the future. I started reading the battle of a generation and it is really great. I hope it can help me be more excited to take on the YH and pass the tests Hashem gives me. Just thought I’d share. IYH I’ll update again soon, at least when I get to 10 days, Bli Neder.

Thank you for sharing. You do indeed have the strength to overcome. B"H you didn't fall, and today you're a happy man! A similar story happened to me a few years ago, I found an old unfiltered smartphone in my in-laws house. Unfortunately I was nowhere near being in control back then, and kept using it to fall. Finally, after a particularly rough night, I had enough; I made a detour through a random park the next day and dropped it in the trash can, never to be seen again. For me, that was the only way out. But even now, I still have weak moments, and an unfiltered device can mess you up in a matter of seconds. Maybe you can do the same with that device?