831018 - Insomnia
I'm thinking of biphasic sleep to fight against insomnia...

831019 - Public transportation
I like to look through the window because if you're not careful enough you might see something triggering.

831021 - The escapisim
Toda Raba Aa because You have been helping me to overcome my addictive thinking, to build my self esteem, to cry out to Your merciful being, to understand that I am not saved by my own strength but by Your etrernal mercy  and your helpful hand, as is said:

Tehilim 127:1
A song of ascents. Of Solomon.
Unless the LORD builds the house,
its builders labor in vain on it;
unless the LORD watches over the city,
the watchman keeps vigil in vain.
Psalms 127:1 with Connections (sefaria.org)

831025 - Inner Light
 Today I found myself in a shiurim about stop looking outside for answers, even how our service could be an anchor to avoid facing down my inner self and all the darkness in it, and on top of that, how to stop following outside for answers and looking there within me because HaShem has put them. Running away from me its to avoid pain, suffering, crying, to avoid face down my work, my soul reparation. But when I humble my self before HaShem is when I can reach all lights in that void, ascend them before him to be closer to Him by giving Him all the good and the bad and finally reach a heartfelt Teshuvah.

All that reconnected me with the time I decided stop and give everything to HaShem when I recognized my insufficiency and all my other issues outside of P&M like fear, anxiety, depression, lack of a father, obsessive perfectionism, and others in which I'm still working on. Basically I just was honest  first with my self and then saw that without Him I couldn't move forward, since then HaShems light has been helping me out of my misery step by step and tracing my steps back to Him.