Great point! I thought it over and came to the conclusion that these thoughts only make me feel depressed meaning its the work of the yetzer hara. I will try to shut out these thoughts and move on but it can be difficult sometimes.

That was in response to Vehkam

I would like to add out of honesty not modesty that I do feel like I see siyata dishmaya in my learning over all. Many times I have had extra hatzlocho even the day that I have fallen. I guess that proves all the feedback I have received is accurate. I will try to use this fact as a means of inspiration. Thank you all

Thanks for this, I feel the same way

i make sure to study this steipler once a week its so powerful and keeps me focused, even if i slip a little i keep on giving myself credit for the fights i had and didn't fall.    

Very powerful piece from the Steipler. Thanks for sharing!