4 weeks BH!!

eyeing a month soon!!

Lots of feelings to write both of happiness of the past and hopes for the future (may the eibeshter give me kochos to see them realized), I don't have koach now but hopefully in the next few days.

Hatzlacha to all

Awesome on 4 weeks!
stay with us and with Hashems help you will be above and beyond 7 weeks!
Until then what has worked for me is the "one day at a time rule"
I assume you incorporated that already but if not then take it as a friendly reminder
Much Hatzlocha!

Bh doing wellHolding over six weeks!!

Been busy a lot the time bh 
I really gain from a lot from whats written on the forum and I try to work on things, so thanks to all those that write and share their thoughts and perspectives.

So bh I'm been very busy the last few days.

So 2 days ago I had a experience that was very motivating and very fulfilling, and I'd like to share.

So I have a certain relative who is for me big nisayon, probably the biggest for me in recent years, whenever I know I'm going to be around her or see her somewhere I try to strengthen myself not look ect.

So 2 days ago on a family group there a picture in which she appeared, and I looked at it and moved on.
Only later that night in bed things from the day were going through my head and I realized that I bichlal didn't know or pay attention what clothes she was wearing, something which is normally a given with this person.
And it wasn't that I didn't stop to look at the picture, I actually paused and was thinking where is this and what's the occasion, so I stopped to contemplate the picture, but I didn't look at her as pretty thing to check out.

It's feels so good to see this change (albeit small, I still check out woman, or at least think in those terms) in my view of things.

Bezh with more work this will grow and grow

Unfortunately this morning with over 50 days clean I fell 

I See what happened and I plan to put things in place to stop me before I fall into the situation that was, and I plan to make this bezh just a temporary blip in the big picture, rather then and nosedive.
BH these days were wonderful, weeks in which alot of things happened in my life and I was able to be in a different place.
I am writing here to make it clear to myself that this must and can continue, and bezh I can look back in 2 weeks and see one long period of growth.

And I end off with a tefillah and bracha to all the others on the site for much hatzlacha in their struggles and lives