This week was incredible in so many ways. I want to share it all. But I'm not in the mood right now. I'm tired; don't have the patience to type.

Which means I'm feeling triggered.

Which is not good, being that I need to shop for clothing online.

Which means I need to go to a website that sells clothing.

Which could be very dangerous.

Which is why I'm here, typing this.





Which me luck.

Tough stuff.. I remember those days of needing to fill my bottomless lust, going to places, buying things. Also, all my really really really bad falls took place in the summer. No matter how shark zman was beforehand.. Chilling memories.
You should have much hatzlacha birshusi. 

Birshusi wrote:

Oy... Dangerous waters. I didn't to a mall for years so instead I shopped on line. Too many times to count I found myself on the the other side of the michizah clothing wise. We're with you Birshusi! Hope you get in a better mood soon. 

shmirashachaim wrote on 15 Jul 2016 16:50:

Thanks.

I'm trying to think of something else to do, but I really have to get this shopping done, so I'm sorta in a pickle. Luckily my father is sitting just a few feet away from me, so that's a deterrent.

I don't want to fall. I'll be okay. With your help.

And His, of course.

Hatzlacha

Hey. Whenever i have to go to youtube or sonething similiar i have my wife watch with me. (Unless i dont and then...) its very effective. Take a breather outside for five minutes... Daven... The truth is you may not be in the mood to do any of the above but can u please do it for my father in law he just had a stroke and lost vision in his eye. Name is mordechai pesach ben malka 

Guarding your eye shoukd be a zchus

 

Oh veiy.. Refuah shalema

truevision wrote on 15 Jul 2016 17:31:

Baruch Hashem I pulled through without even slipping. And I found really cheap pants too. Thanks to everyone, especially shmirashachaim, for the chizuk.

I'm really sorry to hear about your father, truevision. May he have a refuah shleimah b'karov.

Birshusi wrote:

Birshusi, is it really worth it not to have your mom do online shopping for you, if there's a chance you'll lose your pants?

truevision wrote on 15 Jul 2016 17:31:

Just a thought...

You might want to edit out your father's name from the post.

It is personal information that could somewhat reveal your true identity and ruin your anonymity.

If you want to pass on your father's name and his mother's name, you could use a private message to do so.
 

And all you guys who quoted his post, you would need to edit yours as well. Including you, Bendy... 

Gevura Shebyesod wrote on 17 Jul 2016 15:52:

Done 

Markz wrote on 17 Jul 2016 12:23:

I hear. It's not easy to shop for someone else, but I guess I'd have to consider asking her in the future.

I had to go all the way to page three of the to find my thread. I've been away for too long, and boy do I feel it.

I've been slipping a lot over the last two weeks, to the point where I've been checking out pretty much every woman I see.

And twice this week, I camped out by a semi-open bathroom window of a house nearby. Last night, I turned off the lights of the room I was in, and watched to see who was in the bathroom. It turned out to be a man, and I think he saw me. I was petrified that I got busted, but so far, no cops have showed up to arrest me.

I haven't felt this bad since joining GYE. Much of that probably has to do with my lack of posting on the forums, but it's difficult to be part of the conversation and camaraderie when I'm only home once a week. Ironically, things should get better once bein hazmanim starts.

But for now, I'm a legit mess, and I seriously thought about falling before I managed to log on to the forums.

Thanks for checking in!!

How about sneaking to a meeting with Moish, he's a meeting newby too and doesn't bite