Thanks.

I had another stumble.

Two in four days

Was even closer to falling than the first.

But just avoided it.

To be expected, the Yetzer Hara usually lets you think you have won a battle, then attacks again.

As with the firs time I knew dee down that I didn't want what it was offering.

That is was a false high, a fleeting high that then leads to feeling bad about one's self.

I guess I was saved by mindfulness, in an extreme form.

And your streak is still going strong! Keep it up!

Had a stumble last night.



I was Hungry, Angry (Actually resentful) and Tired.



(Especially I was tired - caused by some extra workload in my job, which should ease off very soon.)



That's three out of the four triggers of Hungry Angry Lonely Tired with the acronym which tells you what to do if they happen - HALT.



Thank G-D I did not fall.   



I was able to and take some deep breathes and put intellect before emotion and realise that I was stumbling and heading for a fall.



An interesting thing is that I am convinced there were other reasons for stumbling.



It is Erev Hanukah, and I think the evil forces work extra hard just before a festival.



Also, I did not realise, but I logged in today to see that my clean streak is now 444 days.



That is my record by one day!



So the evil forces were working hard to stop that.



And, I just saw, that the date that I got onto the wall of honour on this website was 24 Kislev (last year) - which is today's date!



I wish everyone Hanukah Sameach.

ויאמר ויסעו פאר פאר פאר

Gevura Shebyesod wrote on 07 Dec 2023 21:18:

שבע יפול צדיק
But 8th Day?
פאר פאר פאר

Monstuh Truck don’t stop for the ocean…

I have had a few stumbles lately.

Mixture of tiredness and loneliness, and depression.

Some emotional pain from the past coming back to haunt me.
Causes me to seek a high in the wrong way.

With Hashem's help I am now aware of this and can react by mindfulness or distraction.
And above all, plan to pre-empt these stumbles by feeling better abut myself.

Hey man you're very brave for posting. Thanks for the chizuk

"Some emotional pain from the past coming back to haunt me.
Causes me to seek a high in the wrong way."
I can relate all too well.
I have found that when the pain was caused by others and I worked on myself to forgive them
and actually say the words "mochel lach" three times it was both liberating and therapeutic.