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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 07 Jun 2017 16:46 #314844

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Markz wrote on 07 Jun 2017 13:31:

I don't believe 'sobriety' applies to myself a non addict. 


Please explain of "myself a non addict"
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כי עיקר מציאות האדם בעה"ז הוא רק לקיים מצות ולעמד בניסיון,  והנאות העולם אין ראוי שיהו לו אלא לעזר ולסיוע בלבד לשיהיה לו נחת רוח ויישוב הדעת למען יוכל לפנות לבו אל העבודה הזאת מסילת ישרים

Re: My Story - Thank Gd 07 Jun 2017 17:45 #314845

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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 07 Jun 2017 20:22 #314864

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Markz wrote on 07 Jun 2017 17:45:
Me and Bards may be meeting soon figuratively 
For details you have my email 

First of all sorry bout the fall but thanks for the chizuk

Secondly  If you are going to realsville please send me the gps coordinates so that one day I may also take that trip thanks

p.s. please send post cards
very important thread: guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21" option="guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21">FEEL THE HUGS!!!

Re: My Story - Thank Gd 07 Jun 2017 20:32 #314865

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MayanHamisgaber wrote on 07 Jun 2017 20:22:

Markz wrote on 07 Jun 2017 17:45:
Me and Bards may be meeting soon figuratively 
For details you have my email 

First of all sorry bout the fall but thanks for the chizuk

Secondly  If you are going to realsville please send me the gps coordinates so that one day I may also take that trip thanks

p.s. please send post cards

Me thought you already did.
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 07 Jun 2017 20:42 #314866

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cordnoy wrote on 07 Jun 2017 20:32:

MayanHamisgaber wrote on 07 Jun 2017 20:22:

Markz wrote on 07 Jun 2017 17:45:
Me and Bards may be meeting soon figuratively 
For details you have my email 

First of all sorry bout the fall but thanks for the chizuk

Secondly  If you are going to realsville please send me the gps coordinates so that one day I may also take that trip thanks

p.s. please send post cards

Me thought you already did.

I wish I did 
When is the next call?
very important thread: guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21" option="guardyoureyes.com/forum/20-Important-Threads/19180-FEEL-THE-HUGS%21%21%21">FEEL THE HUGS!!!

Re: My Story - Thank Gd 08 Jun 2017 04:10 #314893

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Markz, it takes an honest courageous and humble man to post about a fall. For those of us who look at 664 as almost impossible your fall actually did us a favor. In the back of our minds we are thinking, those guys who make it so far are malochim. We just found out you are human, so we can do it too.

Your 664 is not erased. Just as someone who uses mesiras nefesh to control anger, lashon hora or whatever other yetzer hora he is battling, and succeeds for an extended time and then subsequently slips, does not "lose" those good days, the same goes for your incredible accomplishment.

If you could one day elaborate what it means "you had to m****" I would appreciate it. Its a thought I sometimes get also and would like to understand it. May Hashem help you continue (not start again) staying clean with strength and menuchas hanefesh.
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 08 Jun 2017 05:08 #314897

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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 08 Jun 2017 05:37 #314898

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Markz wrote on 07 Jun 2017 13:31:

I fell and hit the restart count button.

Do I feel I lost my sobriety?

No because I never had it

I don't believe 'sobriety' applies to myself a non addict.

My Clean streak log

Began Wall of Honor journey: Aug 13, 2015 28 Av, 5775

Humpty Dumptied: 3am today

Began new journey: Jun 7, 2017 13 Sivan, 5777

At some point in the middle of the night I decided "it's time to Mast*". Now it ain't gonna work without Porn, and of course I won't go on a non filtered device, so I decided to see what i could find on this filtered iPhone.

I discovered a way to access many porn videos outside of any web browser despite all my much appreciated TAG restrictions

As mentioned previously, I do not like to share my loopholes with other gye's and drag other Trucks over the cliff, so pls wait till I do my due diligence and call Tag again... although I know TAG is not the solution

Can I pinpoint what caused my fall? Not really. And that's a hassle for me :-(

What could I have done better?

Needs some though...

I must mention however that compared to my bad old days, these past 664 days were highly productive thank Gd to you guys and gye as a whole!!

The Trucking continues!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 08 Jun 2017 05:37 #314899

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Markz wrote on 07 Jun 2017 13:31:

I fell and hit the restart count button.

Do I feel I lost my sobriety?

No because I never had it

I don't believe 'sobriety' applies to myself a non addict.

My Clean streak log

Began Wall of Honor journey: Aug 13, 2015 28 Av, 5775

Humpty Dumptied: 3am today

Began new journey: Jun 7, 2017 13 Sivan, 5777

At some point in the middle of the night I decided "it's time to Mast*". Now it ain't gonna work without Porn, and of course I won't go on a non filtered device, so I decided to see what i could find on this filtered iPhone.

I discovered a way to access many porn videos outside of any web browser despite all my much appreciated TAG restrictions

As mentioned previously, I do not like to share my loopholes with other gye's and drag other Trucks over the cliff, so pls wait till I do my due diligence and call Tag again... although I know TAG is not the solution

Can I pinpoint what caused my fall? Not really. And that's a hassle for me :-(

What could I have done better?

Needs some though...

I must mention however that compared to my bad old days, these past 664 days were highly productive thank Gd to you guys and gye as a whole!!

The Trucking continues!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i can't really add to what everyone else said so i'll just hug you ((((   ))))

you still inspire me

one thing i'll say is that you sound upbeat not beaten up like everyone else after a fall.way to go!!!
Formerly mikestruggling I just bought a truck. l hang out in the trailer and G-d drives. 
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 08 Jun 2017 07:17 #314902

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Hi Markz,
I am sorry to hear about your fall.
True your clean streak may have ended, but your success streak has not. Over 665 days, you were clean 664 of them. 664/665= over 99.8%. A shooter who scores 99.8% of his shoots will probably be the best player to ever play the game. Even after a rare miss it is incontrovertible that he is still still on a successful streak.
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 08 Jun 2017 12:12 #314909

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AS is something many in society have, men and women, although it's easier to notice by the men 

For more info pls start from page 1
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 08 Jun 2017 12:15 #314910

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Shivisi_Hashem wrote on 07 Jun 2017 16:46:

Markz wrote on 07 Jun 2017 13:31:

I don't believe 'sobriety' applies to myself a non addict.


Please explain of "myself a non addict"

I diagnosed myself. 
You can do too
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Re: My Story - Thank Gd 08 Jun 2017 16:17 #314918

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Hashem Help Me wrote on 08 Jun 2017 04:10:
Markz, it takes an honest courageous and humble man to post about a fall. For those of us who look at 664 as almost impossible your fall actually did us a favor. In the back of our minds we are thinking, those guys who make it so far are malochim. We just found out you are human, so we can do it too.

Your 664 is not erased. Just as someone who uses mesiras nefesh to control anger, lashon hora or whatever other yetzer hora he is battling, and succeeds for an extended time and then subsequently slips, does not "lose" those good days, the same goes for your incredible accomplishment.


I can't agree more, well said!!!

Markz, you are our hero!!!  get up, and continue trucking...
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כי עיקר מציאות האדם בעה"ז הוא רק לקיים מצות ולעמד בניסיון,  והנאות העולם אין ראוי שיהו לו אלא לעזר ולסיוע בלבד לשיהיה לו נחת רוח ויישוב הדעת למען יוכל לפנות לבו אל העבודה הזאת מסילת ישרים

Re: My Story - Thank Gd 08 Jun 2017 20:03 #314925

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Markz wrote on 07 Jun 2017 13:31:

I fell and hit the restart count button.

Do I feel I lost my sobriety?

No because I never had it

I don't believe 'sobriety' applies to myself a non addict.

My Clean streak log

Began Wall of Honor journey: Aug 13, 2015 28 Av, 5775

Humpty Dumptied: 3am today

Began new journey: Jun 7, 2017 13 Sivan, 5777

At some point in the middle of the night I decided "it's time to Mast*". Now it ain't gonna work without Porn, and of course I won't go on a non filtered device, so I decided to see what i could find on this filtered iPhone.

I discovered a way to access many porn videos outside of any web browser despite all my much appreciated TAG restrictions

As mentioned previously, I do not like to share my loopholes with other gye's and drag other Trucks over the cliff, so pls wait till I do my due diligence and call Tag again... although I know TAG is not the solution

Can I pinpoint what caused my fall? Not really. And that's a hassle for me :-(

What could I have done better?

Needs some though...

I must mention however that compared to my bad old days, these past 664 days were highly productive thank Gd to you guys and gye as a whole!!

The Trucking continues!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Markz you mean so much to so many. You have your 664 and a tons more in your truck by having a chelek of other people's days. 
My dear friend, you now have a different kind of challenge.
How to deal after a fall? A much different task. As you have now pressed all sorts of psychological buttons.
You are already batting a thousand by honestly posting that for all to see. Now continue on... 
Oh by the way - there is one button you didn't push. 
That's the loser button. 
That's reserved for only those that throw in the towel. 

Re: My Story - Thank Gd 09 Jun 2017 05:10 #314946

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Loser button?

Now that sounds like a cool feature

Cord should we ask the dev to add this?

I have a longer follow up post pending, but the reason I'm posting now is that I'm sort of in the same struggle mindset of 2 days ago and I know that posting has proven to kill some brain cells which must be a good thing because as I'm typing I feel my horomones calming down

Hormones are in what part of the brain? Please remind me. Right now it feels like my little brain is inside my hormones

Im actually doing laughter therapy now which is a serious form of therapy - that has proven to kill a couple other brain cells cv

On a serious note

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Before posting now, I decided to give the emergency panic button a try, and I got an email of some guy lying in his grave - clearly not dead - and my sex drive didn't die either, so my verdict is out that the panic button should change to

If you're under an attack of lust, click the green button which will post on the forum that "Im Slipping”. Then watch the forum for prompt replies from other gye's"
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