hi shadow good luck on your journey and keep on posting.You mentioned on your first post about getting a sponsor and for me sharing my thoughts and action with some one has been very helpful in braking the grip of the lusting.

so...update...still fighting (or trying not to ) the good fight...on a victory note though yesterday I had a chance to act out in a way I never have...thank god I had the sense not to cross the line..that said I cant help but feel down a bit since it was my fault I was in that position in the first place...just thought id share...to be perfectly honest  I think I need a attitude check...i have tried choking myself of masterbation but its like a clock and once it peaks I run the risk of doing  things that are worse then masterbation and scheduling a day in the week  is also not something im not satisfied with cause after the deed is done it takes about 24 hrs or so for the lust to go down....so my question is what next? and also another question i got....like drug atticts they go through withdrawl phase and I understand it to be very painful mentaly and physicly ...but from what I hear for some its the way and once its outa their system their system is normalized...point being if I was to choke myself from acting out (taking precautions ofcourse so I dont run the risk of doing something I will regret) will my mind be somewhat normalized(in a sense where I wont feel like its a ticking clock cycle)? would appreciate thoughts on this

i am too much of a newbie to answer authoritatively, but i have found a tremendous reduction in thoughts, triggers, urges.  Each time i just turn it over to Hashem and He takes care of it.  When the situation is going to be challenging, i now pray before hand instead of getting caught up in it.  i hope this is comforting.
Hatzlacha in all things GOOD.
chaimyakov