Edge,

Have a great new week (preferably in the middle!)

Alex

1daat-
Deep stuff, man.  Here is my problem.  I know I lonely in terms of needing the love of a woman.  I know everything out there is pure dimyone, but I still have the longing.  I am in a marriage with a tzadakus that due to no fault of her own, can't give me the love I need.  See Hello to GYE community for more on my story.  She needs too much, and has no strength or ability to give me that care.  I can't get that thing any other way, and it is slowly killing me.  When I hit rock bottom, that is when I act out.  Where can I get that connection if not from her?

So soon it'll be a year I'm entirely celibate.  I learned that for me it's not a need, it's a desire.  I don't know if I could do it if I was married and living with a wife like you're doing.

I admire you.

All brochos for you and yours.

But what is the plan 1daat?  Is a man able to stay celebate for extended periods like that?  Not trying to pry, I just want to know for myself, if it comes to that.