I need s/one to send me a pdf of the big book in my email, my two fiters dont let me even get near it

Refuah Sheleimah Tzaddik!

I'm sending it right now!

Hello Tzaddik90,

Just checking in.  Looks like you've got quite a story.

I am also in Israel and have dealt with this feeling that a shul here isn't exactly a Cheers episode (yeah, I know that's an old post already, but thought I'd say something anyways).

--Eye.

eye, i c u read my 1st post on this thread, its an old story,

i never liked cheers, but the song was nice

kit please
gotta go

hashem is crushing me, im just getting stronger, still powerless, no stirah

Getting stronger. Y'know, that has always bothered me fer I know I am weak and it's precisely why i need His help so much, and I do not sense any inner strength at all when I am untroubled and able to not give lust the time of day. So what strength?

Yet here are many people talking of a feeling of strength, "Be strong" and "I am feeling stronger now.." Nu?

So I found an answer be"H:

There is inner strength that is ours, and there is outer strength that is bestowed on us from outside us like a levush that is m'sayeya. (For those who are in RMCh"L and levushim for the neshomah, this will tickle you plenty.)

The strength I have is an outer garment - it is not me and it is not really mine - all I really have is my Neshomah and my flesh. All the rest is added after I was born and will be removed after I die.

My outer strength is on loan from Hashem - depending on whether I allow Him to put it on me. And for that, i must first get still and quiet - just like when you try to dress your kids. They need to stop fidgeting ("For crying out loud, just stay still a minute!!" - anybody else here ever say that here?). And I need the 3rd step and it's maintainer, the 11th step. I need to be still, calm and quiet and accept His total care. Ein laguf tov ella shtikah.

Inside, I am the same sexaholic powerless over lust and dependent on my relationship with my very own G-d. Thank-G-d for one day at a time, so that all this can remain fresh and real and not become old and forgotten, c"v.

Stay in touch buddy!

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@$#&!  ^#@& >)  +*&^@!?

(I never like being left out of a conversation even when I don't know the language morse-code!)

tzaddik90/Special Weapons And Tactics wrote on 12 Apr 2011 20:14:


dov wrote on 12 Apr 2011 20:39:


For the uninitiated.  The first post spells "She" in morse (although Tzaddik you are missing a space). 

Since "she" was on someone's mind, Dov responded SOS.

"But what does @$#&! mean, mommy?," asked the little boy. (that's me)

;D

See son,

Mommy doesn't know. She's a tzadeikess.

Tatty on the other hand, well -let's just say that he's seen an illustrated dictionary of that on the net...

Yes, yes, he's busy at work... Maybe when he gets home, but by 3 AM you're probably sleeping sheifelle. Maybe it's better that way...

Dear me, I wish he would see what's happening to him and at least check into GYE...

dov wrote on 12 Apr 2011 21:30:


That just means you're father is not getting dessert tonight said the mother.

Hi there - been crazy busy, but wanted to say hello to you, my dear friend.

SB, i think dov and uaj caught shlobotnick soup fever

sb, good to see u, when u went to usa we mamesh werent in touch ,
that helped me develop a little INDEPENDENCE that i needed

sb, i thought abt u last night, while reading abt. the ninjas...here's a quiz Q no wickipedia or cheating-who was ninja's worst enemy ever?

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