sure,
iv'e had tons of cumulative clean days and streaks....

but there were three times this year where i got onto the CRAZY TRAIN (ozzy) of hyperpsychofreksexuality and almost...
*one time, i was solicited.....for tzedaka (cant say triggering things...)
*one time i went into a place and saw s/thing that drove me absolutely bananas...one of biggest triggers id ever seen
*third time, i got a pc and used the internet for work and....suprise!!!

so i can have a mediocre recovery...and try to restrain myself when i ocassionally go bananas and when i do go bananas i can handcuff myself to a massive green garbage can that they have here in J-lem (called a tzfardaya) and hope not to act out with jedi marsupials

but why live this way?

why not just drink some SA recovery shmutz draino, and leave this stuff there....

more to come....

tzadik,
facing your true self is real greatness and goodness
more power to you
ashrecha vetov lach!
i am rooting and tooting, praying and swaying for you

tzaddik90 wrote on 23 Mar 2011 15:11:


"TZADDIK-YOU ARE A SICKO FREAK AND A GREAT GUY-ITS NO STIRAH"

So am I! Will you be my friend? Pretty please?

E

ג"א מצטרף להנ"ל כיהודה ועוד לקרא
ז"ש בלאאמו"ר זמירות יו"ט זצללה"ה
אבדק"ק קהל אנשי פאסעם
מלפנים רודקיל משגיח
בעמ"ח ספר שו"ת בדיתי מליבי

i am glad to have friends that are such sicko freaks AND great guys
hey, if everybody in the meeting will be just like me then.....I have nothing to fear!!!
i'm starting to chap something...
everyone who walks into that meeting will be thinking he's the craziest one, and that I am much less of a sicko freak than him....

Wow...it's slowly coming together.....
hey...i think i'm onto something....

so we really are all great guys with a few skeletons in the closet?
will anyone there know what skeletons are in mine?
and i will know in my mind, and humble myself, with the truth in my face.....and.....and....

I'd like to point something out...perhaps I'm wrong, but I see other people say the same thing, and I think it's a mistake - our issue does NOT have to do with being hypersexual. It has to do with the fact that we're not focused on what we should be, and generally that comes from an emotional neediness, escaping or other issues, not a sexual one.

MAY I PARRY YOUR SWORD, SILENT BATTLES

although ligabei p&m it  may be true what u say, but when people go for the last tools of the handbook, and are willing to do live things with (should i say TO instead of WITH also?...) live people (not so casually with all the nice chats first) i disagree

when a regular person turns into a crazy driven person willing to do anything to or with anyone, isnt that hypersexuality, which waaayyyyy surpasses looking at people standing next to monster trucks on the web?
TOUCHE

another way to say it, is that when the thoughts are all about the people you are with daily and those around you, and not just virtual....and the undercurrents come every time you see....or are with.... and then.... of course.....and it becomes much more of a serious matter, because not only is it an illness, but it is in real-time life
to be or not to b

Tzaddik what I think he was saying is that hypersexuality is a symptom not a cause, if you fix the cause the hypersexuality leaves too (after some time).

to this i agree

me3 and SB,
i agree to this wholeheartetly

this is exactly why i was so relunctant to even consider SA until 7up plunged her fist into my chest and ripped out my spleen with her deadly truthful and insightful words

it is because although in my career as a sicko iv'e managed to do a few really psychotic things in real-time,
nonetheless, when i am clean i act as clean as a whistle

when im good, im holy and pure
when not, i was an absolute psycho

so in my own experience, i saw that hypersexuality is a symptom and not a cause, because when i improved it evaporated like it never was

i actually dismounted the wild steed of hyperblah blah again recently, this was insightful, shkoiach
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the issue which is not an issue is that my wife would never ever let me go to such a honorable gathering (cuz thank god she has not a clue of the skeletons in the closet and it'll stay that way, she knows just enuff and thats great)

so i will simply devise a plan to go anyhow

as bon jovi said "its my life, its now or never, im not gonna live forever"

i can justify it with sefarim, but who needs the sefarim, i imagine this is pure logic....

oh, and any readers who were ever in SA, feel free to pm me, not all at once now....why do i have this feeling like most people here didnt need it, or want it, or try it, or....
i have quoted music, i imagine dave rage arriving any moment now....

tzaddik90 wrote on 23 Mar 2011 19:20:


Just a small observation which may clarfiy everything.  Silent Battle is not holding a sword, it is a pair on nunchucks.  With that clarification in mind, I think you may better get his point.

although this may be queer,
i can say with certainty as a ninja of 5 years training,
that ninja's never used chucks,
they used swords, tetsubishi, stars, chains.....
i AM a loser and read many of steven hayes books, eyin sham
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on the inyan, i once bought a cheap sword and brought it to a fight, the guy was too drunk to be scared and i almost sliced him in half-and made some mexican shwarma.....those were the days...
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nowadays, chucks are a prime tool, as they perform excellent in multi-enemy fighting, and when using string and wood instead of stell they can be brought into places with metal detectors
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daily ninja tip-carry with you a loaded cap gun when aimlessly venturing into east jerusalem, bec. they cannot tell from afar that it is fake, and you can fire a shot "in the air" to boot
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how queer

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NOW BACK TO THE THREAD!

GOOD NIGHT GENTLEMEN

A SOLDIER RETIRES TO GET READY FOR A BRAND NEW DAY OF GROWTH

tzaddik90 wrote on 23 Mar 2011 20:08:


All I know is that Michaelangelo of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles used a pair of nunchucks.  And the last ninja that I knew who held both ends of a sword was shot dead after his trail of blood was followed. 

Heh!

TMNT are a ra'ayah?

You're forgetting that they seemed to be pretty stupid!

They used to say things like: "Gnarly Dude!"...