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Re: Where I'm at 09 Dec 2009 12:02 #33437

imtrying25 Current streak: 16 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 3010 Karma: 2	Ill try and give you a visit Uri. If that helps. And this time make sure your there. ;D
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Re: Where I'm at 09 Dec 2009 12:33 #33447

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[/quote]Uri wrote on 09 Dec 2009 07:25:

I'm feeling a little insecure and exposed right now just I just acted out.
My natural reaction is to "take control" andgo into a funk (internal control) or smoke (external control).
I dont want to be on defense the whole day.
But after acting out,I feel so exposed (being as i just let go of control).
I need chizzuk.
I dont want to be in defense mode all day.
I want to be fragile!

Any idea what set this off?
Perhaps figuring that out will help you retain the 'fragile'?
You are really doing great Uri!
Hold on to the vulnerability;
you are in a safe place,
with safe people who care and are here for you as you know.
There are no bulls in this china shop and
You are a cosily cacooned pupa
about to become a butterfly!
(Perhaps Eye will lend you his avatar for a day!)

Hashem is addicted to you! Feel His hugs!"Sheva yipol tzaddik VKUM"

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Re: Where I'm at 09 Dec 2009 16:15 #33532

letakain OFFLINE Platinum Boarder KOTNMW Posts: 5036 Karma: 64	http://www.worldofstock.com/slides/NIN1557.jpg http://www.hoganphoto.com/Monarch_C.jpg
	I am proud of myself today because of who I am becoming with progress, not perfection one day at a time I am a pickle, and I'll never be a cucumber again. and pickles are YUM! my thread: guardyoureyes.com/forum/6-Women-on-the-way-to-90-Days/248941-Letakains-internet-addiction-journal Last Edit: by sushiandfries.

Re: Where I'm at 09 Dec 2009 16:25 #33536

7yipol Current streak: 3 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder YES HE CAN! Posts: 4686 Karma: 12	Those are sooooo cool Letakain!
	Hashem is addicted to you! Feel His hugs!"Sheva yipol tzaddik VKUM" Last Edit: by mi83.

Re: Where I'm at 09 Dec 2009 22:50 #33663

jerusalemsexaddict	yea thanks. (those are the ugliest pictures i have ever seen
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Re: Where I'm at 10 Dec 2009 00:25 #33686

habib613	thanks for getting me out of my funk... i've been trying all day ;D ;D ;D ;D
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Re: Where I'm at 10 Dec 2009 12:26 #33811

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The best thing to do is probably to FORGET ABOUT IT.

There's definitely what to learn from a fall, but not while your mind is telling you, "hey, you just messed up! Aren't you so awful!"

Wait it out a day or two, or even a week or two. Just try to get on with things. Pretend like it didn't happen.

After your mind settles, then you can go back and do your ferensics to analyze what went wrong, and how to prevent it in the future.

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Re: Where I'm at 02 Jan 2010 16:42 #41044

the.guard Current streak: 805 days OFFLINE Moderator Posts: 6438 Karma: 138	Upon Uri's request, I moved his thread back into the lime-light :D Welcome back Uri!
	Webmaster of www.guardyoureyes.org - Maintaining Moral Purity in Today's World. We’re here on a quest ; it’s really all a test. Just do your best and G-d will do the rest. Last Edit: by pleasedbison72.

Re: Where I'm at 02 Jan 2010 16:44 #41046

7yipol Current streak: 3 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder YES HE CAN! Posts: 4686 Karma: 12	WELCOME BACK SON! Youve made my day. Or night. Whatever! :D
	Hashem is addicted to you! Feel His hugs!"Sheva yipol tzaddik VKUM" Last Edit: by Motorcycle.

Re: Where I'm at 02 Jan 2010 17:02 #41049

imtrying25 Current streak: 16 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 3010 Karma: 2	guardureyes wrote on 02 Jan 2010 16:42: Upon Uri's request, I moved his thread back into the lime-light :D Welcome back Uri! Thank you Guard. And im hoping it doesnt ever move from there.
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Re: Where I'm at 03 Jan 2010 03:54 #41148

letakain OFFLINE Platinum Boarder KOTNMW Posts: 5036 Karma: 64	YABADABADOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! uri's back!!!!!
	I am proud of myself today because of who I am becoming with progress, not perfection one day at a time I am a pickle, and I'll never be a cucumber again. and pickles are YUM! my thread: guardyoureyes.com/forum/6-Women-on-the-way-to-90-Days/248941-Letakains-internet-addiction-journal Last Edit: by Guard316.

Re: Where I'm at 03 Jan 2010 08:19 #41212

jerusalemsexaddict

Ok.This is quite hard for me to say,but I must anyway.
People have been telling me that I've been too intense on the forum.
Also,I sense in myself this annoyance sometimes when I go through the forum.
I was aware the whole time that it comes from a need for some control and stability.
But until now I didn't realize the extent.
Chatai ani mazkir hayom...

As I work with rav shlachter on trying to let go of my various controls and "securities",I find myself desperate at times for any form of security.
My desire for an emotional connection with a woman is stronger than it has been in a long time.
And this desperation showed itself on the forum,too.
As this is one of my biggest places of security,I sometimes hold on too much.
I find myself spending an abnormal amount of time on the forum,and sensing any "controls" on the forum very acutely.
And I have responded in kind.I have so strongly wanted to ensure this place of security that I have been too strong minded and even confrontational at times,all to feel secure.
I so badly want to be sure that I am headed in the right direction that I have pushed my shitta too strongly at times,just to feel that my path is correct for me.
As I sensed this,I tried taking a step back,but I found leaving this place of security a little too difficult.
So from now on,I will try to let go of this need to control and hear people out more,without feeling too threatened.
Alas,Rome was not built in a day,but I shall try my hardest.

My love to all
-Uri

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Re: Where I'm at 03 Jan 2010 08:21 #41213

habib613	yay! uri's posting again! so... i'm still trying to live cuz of what u wrote... but i'm also trying 90 days... good combo, right?
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