Nothing like leftover cholent and Bananagrams - or say they say!

or so who says?

i wanted to clarify.
this is only really nights
days i live life baruch hashem im learning
but nights
and motzei shabbes
uch
and after being home for shabbes
uch

You should read some of the amazing posts of Uri on this forum. It will blow you away...

How about a trip to the kotel, a stop at a restaurant in the old city for Melava malka, with an ipod and some good music... Or maybe bring your guitar and just start playing songs to Hashem in the old-city (with a little can next to you for donations to GYE)

Maybe start a chesed project or volunteer work to keep busy...

Spend some time with friends.

Spend some time with your younger siblings, take them to the park, give them rides...

Go visit your Mom...

Do a work-out... releases stress...

Bike-ride...

Um... did anything here sound like a good way to "LIVE LIFE" and get out of your head?  

Love from the
GUARD

Yeah, know the feeling. I remember those off shabbosim when I was in mesivta - not spiritually positive, to put it mildly. Urgh! Even now - I mean, I visit my parents maybe once a year for a few days and my wife counts the days until we leave - "you're just not the same person".

Go figure...

How you holding up, son?

Uri, welcome back! I read about your return in a chizuk email!

By the way, Guard, I loved this idea:
guardureyes wrote on 14 Nov 2009 17:52:


Uri, I'm glad you're finding true happiness.

All the best,
Momo

URI????
What u so bz with bro?
Working?
Can't even come say hello?  :-\

TrYiNg wrote on 16 Nov 2009 13:50:



Hey, he's a responsible working man now!
My guess is he'll be on tonight..

Ok, ok...backing off  :-[ :-[

Yup,I'm a working man now.
Huh?
What's that?
Responsible?
One sec,i'm looking it up...

uri, i love you're new guy.
he's so YOU!!!!
like the beard, especially.
and the tummy.

Rage,truly inspirational.

"You are.....a sick demented kid"
No,Im not

"You are disgusting.I regret the day i made you"
What?
"A worthless son.Can't even get up in the morning"
Stop.....please.....
"A ben soreh u'moreh"
"You're a hyprotical peice of sh**"
Dad...please stop....
"Get the hell out of my house!"
"Find someone else who maybe will deal with you"
But what did I do?
"(mother's name),that kid is really disgusting.I want him out.He's destroying our house"
I'm right here,you know?Do you realize how much this hurts me?
"He is a disgrace to our family"
"A chillul Hashem"
"Stupid charedi kid.Pretends to be religious,but doesn't even show his father respect"
Is this true?Am I really as worthless as he says?
"Just go.I don't want to see your ugly face"
Okay.
He's right.I am worthless.After all,he's my father,and he knows me as well as anyone.

"Hey uri!Is everything allright?"
"Yea.Listen,can I maybe stay by your place tonight?"
"Sure.No problem.Is everything okay though?"
Deep breath.
"Yea.Everything's fine.I'll see u later tonight."

:'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(


No you're not. You know that. I've never seen someone with such a will to live and extreme courage to do whats right. The way you keep on getting up and continue going despite all odds, is more than brave its...its.. simply mindboggling. And the care and concern for a fellow jew that just screams from your posts show an indomitable human being..Someone who not only survives through thick and thin,and still becomes a better person because of it,  but uses it to help others . Have you ever seen such display of amazing character? Need anyone say more? 
 
oh, and jst cuz he's your father doesn't give him the right to say something so degrading and hurtful..My mom always says the same things. I know that even if she's a parent she knows less about me than anyone else in the whole world and her saying all those things jst goes to show that she is all that. An insensitive and selfish human being. And more.

Remember that we all love you no matter what in the world your dad thinks..........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! & hashem does too..guaranteed.

Between the 2 of you, my heart breaks.
I feel your pain as much as an outsider can
and wish with all the strength in a mothers heart
that I could just take you into my arms and chase away the monsters
both real and imagined.

Both of you are survivors
even though its the last thing you feel like at times,
and last thing you want to be.

I am about to make a shocking statement.
And I am even willing to swear that what Im about to say is 100% true:

Parents are human, for good, and for bad.
And parents are NOT ALWAYS RIGHT
In these specific cases,
your parents are WRONG WRONG WRONG.
You are both amongst the most special people I know,
and growing despite the odds against you.
Or perhaps,
because of them.