OMG, Uri.
I'M PROUD LIKE CRASY.
UR DA GR8EST ;D 8) 8) :D

Wud give u gevaldigs, but mr b owns da copyright.
Wud give u smithereens but ltakein doesn't let.
Wud give u pts but guard says he owns them.
Wud give u **** but kedusha would edit them.
All I'm left with is sushi, and woodford.
Watch out for that next ups package ;D

ur sending sushi via ups?
shver.
i hope it doesn't stink up the woodford  :-[

I had a terrible night.
a friend of mine saw the girl that I'm still emotionally dependant on in town with a guy with long hair and an earring. I know I should grow up and get over her but I'm still totally dependant on her.
shver.
so I went to an engagement party and what do you think they had???
a bottle of Woodford!
I drank half the bottle by myself.
now I am drunk.
but at least I didnt go to Tel Aviv and ...
shver.
Anyway mom saved my life (literally) again
and here I am depressed and crying like a newborn baby ashamed of myself and of who I am,and of what I was and what I am and will be.
when will this end???!!!

Uri, did you see Chizuk e-mail #605:

Personal Victory of the Day: Uri's Win

Anecdote of the Day: Yankel Hits Bottom

Beautiful!!

You have greatness in you and you have nothing to be ashamed of; not who you are, and especially not who you WILL BE! (Admor of GYE)

P.S. To take your recovery to ever higher levels, please join Duvid Chaim's group starting tomorrow. Recovery must be the number 1 priority in your life. If you don't get sober, everything in your life will get progressively worse. And if you do, everything will get progressively better. Believe this or else.

If only my boy knew what he does to that place!

You know that pain you have?
That really deep pain which you're afraid of confronting?
That holds the key to your true depth.
It is very close to the pain.
And we think that the pain is deep.
But really, it is just us that are deep.

Depression is a security when there is nothing else.
Depression is an escape from fear.

uri, re: your ex with pony haired agil dude

i dont think we ever completely get over someone and erase them from memory...uri, the password i have for this site is the name of a girl i once knew and loved....lets leave it at that...i dream sometimes of girls ive loved...in my dreams we're still together...in my dreams its the only place i hurt...in real life, ive becomes a rock...

now, you, uri, have got a big heart...you wear your heart on your sleeve and youre proud of it...my prayer for you is that you continue to love big and hurt big as opposed to stop loving and stop hurting..its not a curse to hurt, its a curse to no longer care...

keep fighting
ratm

Rage AT Machine wrote on 18 Oct 2009 16:34:


This is unquestionably the saddest, most pain-filled post ever posted on this forum.

Rage; I daven for you that you go through the pain of defrosting very soon. Because after the pain is warmth, comfort and love. Yes, and even - or especially -  a Tatte in Shamayim.
I speak from experience, not just flake land

:'(

oh, and the "friend" who told you he saw her with this dude is A Hole in The Universe....

Rage AT Machine wrote on 18 Oct 2009 16:49:


ditto

Rage AT Machine wrote on 18 Oct 2009 16:34:


Ouch. Ouch. Ouch.  Sometime we rage when we can't cry. But water melts rocks, as R' Akiva found out, and when pinnochio becomes a real boy, perhaps he'll find solace. Becoming a rock stops us from grieving and then it always hurts - maybe it's time to let go? Just to mourn, and let things move through you instead of freezing up so they don't hurt?

kanesher wrote on 18 Oct 2009 17:17:


When you are ready, we are here. Your pace, your terms.

Gevalt, that hurts.

That having been said, just maybe, his new dependence on her will cause a critical airlock decompression (CAD), releasing the malfunctioning emotional tether from your memory of her (MD - Memory de-Tethering) and enable your full-independence-recovery-circuits (FIRC - oops) to engage the nuculur (thanks, Bush) reactor of reality within you, putting your tachlis-boosters (TB - oops again) back on line (L -?).
Whatever.

GET OVER IT!!!!

Love,
Dov