JIP just stopping in to say hi and tell you I care about how you feel and how you are doing

Tnx guys, for checking up on me, hoping for a better day 2day

i'll drink to that!

Zemmy ,end of the day
No reason to drink to it, day sucked once again, will hope for a better 1 2moro

maybe we just didn't drink enough...

i don't mean to make light of your situation ch'v, but at least you are hopeful
sounds really tough. wish i could do something to help

keep in mind your tremendous journey over these past months. have a talk with the Boss. ask for a raise...
שנשמע ונתבשר בשורות טובות

Ya, after I submitted my last message, I thought to myself, what did I just write, "HOPE" I keep on saying I gave up my hope but I guess subconsciously I do still have hope, ya talking to the boss about a raise, who speaks about a raise we talk here about initial pay, and thanks for wanting to help, but none of u can help, the 1 & only who I know can, is hashem but so far he's not wiling to do so, so I got nothing to do, I can't force him to help me, he's boss , I can only ask for help, & that's what I keep on doing, but I guess he has some other plans & I am sure he knows what he does, but it does not seem fair to me, so I'll see if I will be able to survive the pain

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what a nice song teddy

update: 1st half of the dayw as good, than 2nd part was bad , dont know whats gana be if hashem is not gana have some mercy on me, i am afraid i will be back to step one very soon, ooch what a tuff world hashem made, why cant it be a happy place , guess hashem loves to see Jews In Pain
well he is boss so i aint gana tell him what to do

take care guys, good night

No what I did once when I was super-rid? I remeber briut said he does s/t similiar sometimes 2. I said "hey g-d I dnt want to fall nowbut if u dont even give me any hope at all I cant do this anymore. Im right at the brink of falling ribono shel olom I need a hug please jsut a little chizuk a little obvious love from u'...and g-d gave it to me we lived happily ever after till now. Not saing praying to g-d will save u from falling, but just praying to g-s to send u a little hug maybe make u feel better?

a lichtige zeese shabbos to you and yours reb JIP

Thank u zemmy, u too have a holy & happy shabbos

Hey guys, being in not such a good state I can say that shabbos was decent, tried to stay calm & happy, was a struggle but had to keep up the face for wife, as soon as shabbos was over things started kicking back out of shape, so right now I'm 1 minute up than 2 minutes down
Will see if hashem is finally ready to help me or he wants me to hit rock bottom again b4 I'm worth his help

:D?

Hi zemmy, reading this book is causing me some pain and I'm very close to get into even a deeper depression, cuz I do identify with everything he says in the book so far and I see I'm not just a sex addict, I have too many things to work on and its just much easier to give up on life and let some1 else struggle

halivy i will be zoche do see the place of the one who calls himself jip in gan eden. To be in the same placw is much to much to hope for.