Hello friends, last night when saying the brucha b4 lighting the candles, the only thing that interfered my mind was the GYE forum, it hit me so strong that I cried, yes while saying the brucha with my wife & kids around me, tears started flowing down my cheek, I was so thankful to hashem for bailing me outz, just last year @ this time I was still so down the drain and hashem gave me the koach to get a hold @ myself and he grabbed me out of the dumps, & through the half hour while singing I was hit with this emotion again and again, when saying ???? ???? the words had a different meaning than they had in the past, what I picked out of it last night was, that as soon as we realize that hashem is in control and that if we rely only on him, there is nothing to fear of, and by giving it all over to him, we can step on a lion as we say there, and that's what he did to me and to many others here on the forum , we just gotta connect to him in a father/son relationship and not to forget to thank for every little drop of joy he sends our way, in the past chanuka was a very low time for me, going to the mikva b4 candle lighting gave me an opportunity to act out all day long as I knew the mikva will be open l8r and I'll go clean myself (how insane) and I used to sit the half as on needles waiting for it to be over, looking on my watch every 3 minutes, this year b"h it was different didn't rush, took my time to learn a bit while siting @ the mnorah, and I am so thankful to hashem and to all of u for giving me my life back, my message to all of u out there, if there is a strong will , there is a way, yes there is hope

No question my heiligger zaydeh

Is showing our tzaddik JIP

Basheffer geb a kik oif daynner sheyfallech!!

KOT!!

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wow. the koyach of chanukah!
this is the time to refuel our truck with fire of the menorah and latkeh oil to be able to truck on turbo power the entire year!

My truck's engine is slow, can't pick up speed on the mountains, just feel like letting it all go

JIP don't be a JAP

you're stronger than this.

prove 2 urself how strong u r.

Gevaldig.
i too was overcome with emotion when bentching licht (sober since Erev Chanukkah)
but my family had no clue what the emotion was about.
was feeling a little agitated on Wed and it helped to write down my feelings. Thurs night i was feeling pretty upset about things including being late paying bills and feeling overwhelmed with our money situation. Friday morning i did see in a sefer how Mikva helps when in tzar and actually felt better after toiveling.

JIP, you're SUCH an inspiration. Can you even imagine the whole universe slipping to the kedushedike side just on account of your own actions to stay clean? That the "just one mitzvah" (from the song) is yours. Go back and read through your own thread if you get a little down and realize what an amazing trip it's been!

B'hatzlacha.

B"h another week passed in good spirits, I am trying to focus on the good, and I'm staying connected to hashem as much as I can, its tuff game, but I believe the rewards are worth it, hope to take along the light of chanuka to shine through y heart every day

Hello

Thanks for popping in FFTS, how r u holding

hi JIP, sounds like you have a great attitude, to focus on the good and to connect to Hashem, and it definitely is tough at times, and it is really worth it, chazak ve'amatz, you are a model of resilience and perseverance, KUTGW

JIP is the best of the best

you betcha. reading JIP's posts always makes me HAPPY  ;D

Thank u guys, u are fueling up my truck

I'm sitting in the shotgun seat