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Re: My struggles with kedushah 03 Dec 2024 08:09 #426360

tzaddikvikam13 OFFLINE Expert Boarder Posts: 158	Boruch Hashem, I didn't have any nisyonos shabbos afternoon, didn't have any falls over the off shabbos. Had some urges in the past few days to m, didn't give on.

Re: My struggles with kedushah 03 Dec 2024 09:32 #426361

Muttel Current streak: 222 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 498 Karma: 23	Hero!!!
	We're in this struggle together; feel free to reach out! Muttel15@gmail.com Feel free to call/text! (908) 251-9590 (google) Check out my thread here: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/413043-My-ENTIRE-story#413043

Re: My struggles with kedushah 03 Dec 2024 14:01 #426377

jollylemur95 OFFLINE Senior Boarder Posts: 50 Karma: 5	Wow!!! Kudos to you!! What a kidush hashem you are making!! Keep it up!!

Re: My struggles with kedushah 05 Dec 2024 04:17 #426549

tzaddikvikam13 OFFLINE Expert Boarder Posts: 158	I had a very strong urge yesterday, battled and stood strong for a while, but eventually give in and m'd,
	Last Edit: 15 Dec 2024 10:56 by tzaddikvikam13.

Re: My struggles with kedushah 05 Dec 2024 04:59 #426551

jollylemur95 OFFLINE Senior Boarder Posts: 50 Karma: 5	I know this has been mentioned before but might be good to repeat. HHM told me that a person came to the steipler struggling in kedusha. The Stiepler said he wants to kiss the hands of someone who held back even only sometimes. The fact that you were able to fight means a lot! Be proud of the fight you put up and take that encouragement to fight (and be"h win) the next battle! Chazak V'amatz!

Re: My struggles with kedushah 08 Dec 2024 19:36 #426733

tzaddikvikam13 OFFLINE Expert Boarder Posts: 158	clean since then

Re: My struggles with kedushah 08 Dec 2024 19:58 #426734

tzaddikvikam13 OFFLINE Expert Boarder Posts: 158	As i've been learning recently about how many people struggle with these things and how normal it is, its begun to dawn on me... that my struggles with kedusha might just be the most normal part of me.

Re: My struggles with kedushah 10 Dec 2024 21:38 #426887

tzaddikvikam13
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Yesterday I was m'ing in the shower.
I felt like I really wanted to be doing it, and at the same time I wanted to stop, but it was too hard
iyh50 was on the phone with me, trying to be machazek me and help me stop. I was continuing the whole time he was talking, it felt too hard to stop, even though I knew everything he was saying was true, that it wasn't worth it & that I really didn't want to give in.
Then I told myself that even if I feel like I really want to give in and it feels too hard too fight back, I can pause for a minute, and continue afterwards if I feel like I still need to.
I stopped for a minute and didn't continue.
Boruch Hashem I didn't come to mz"'l.
Sat down to a seudas mitzvah afterwards.

Last Edit: 10 Dec 2024 21:39 by tzaddikvikam13.

Re: My struggles with kedushah 10 Dec 2024 23:16 #426889

stopsurvivingstartliving OFFLINE Gold Boarder Posts: 313	Wow! Now that's a real win. I would tell you to celebrate but you did already. Hatzlacha Raba and Keep Trucking!
	Introducing myself My current count to 90! Nechama for the singles/bochurim

Re: My struggles with kedushah 10 Dec 2024 23:34 #426891

redfaced Current streak: 581 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 1128 Karma: 55	stopsurvivingstartliving wrote on 10 Dec 2024 23:16: Wow! Now that's a real win. I would tell you to celebrate but you did already. Hatzlacha Raba and Keep Trucking! The heck with it. I say celebrate again!
	May you slide down the banister of happiness and get many splinters of success up your career Feel free to send me an owl, a howler, or even a Crumple-Horned Snorkack to Iamredfaced@gmail.com The Red Face

Re: My struggles with kedushah 15 Dec 2024 05:09 #427096

tzaddikvikam13 OFFLINE Expert Boarder Posts: 158	I was in the bathroom today and started having a really strong urge to m. It was a hard battle, I wanted to give in, but I stayed strong and didn't.

Re: My struggles with kedushah 15 Dec 2024 05:26 #427098

5678 OFFLINE Senior Boarder Posts: 45 Karma: 2	the warrior heroe of GYE

Re: My struggles with kedushah 15 Dec 2024 11:02 #427109

tzaddikvikam13 OFFLINE Expert Boarder Posts: 158	M'd in the shower for two hours.

Re: My struggles with kedushah 15 Dec 2024 11:10 #427114

tzaddikvikam13 OFFLINE Expert Boarder Posts: 158	All it took was that one fall a week and a half ago,and now the struggle is 100 times harder.

Re: My struggles with kedushah 15 Dec 2024 15:26 #427120

Muttel Current streak: 222 days OFFLINE Platinum Boarder Posts: 498 Karma: 23	oy.......... do i feel for you, brother.... Here's a hug.........
	We're in this struggle together; feel free to reach out! Muttel15@gmail.com Feel free to call/text! (908) 251-9590 (google) Check out my thread here: guardyoureyes.com/forum/19-Introduce-Yourself/413043-My-ENTIRE-story#413043