we will be here

some_guy wrote:


sounds intense....did you?

My therapist started counting hours instead of days. Also, I should only count hours that I am awake. I keep a little note card in my right pocket and put tallies on it for every hour that I am clean. Right now there are 91 tally marks.

I have been feeling better and have had lustful thoughts less. Yesterday was a little challenging, but I made it through. My therapist also suggested writing quotes from this website on a note card and then looking at it whenever I feel the need to.

One of my favorites is, "... it is in man's power to elevate by means of his tears not only the souls that he himself brings down, but also some of the souls that other men brought down..." What I like about it so much is that it reminds me that what I am doing helps of of klal israel. It tells me that by fighting I am benefiting other Jews, so what right do I have to give up.

Cordnoy, I did not come back. I went somewhere else; but that was then and this is now. I can't do anything about that. I need to focus on this hour. Nothing more; nothing less.

-some_guy/Elias/Eliyahu

P.S. Happy Passover!

some_guy wrote:


Great to hear.

As long as nobody took your light or drained you down.

b'hatzlachah

I have 115 tally marks.

I am feeling a little weak right now. This one thought will just not go away. I am going to stay on this site for a while. Hopefully that will help.

To everyone one on Guard Your Eyes, have a great Yom Tov!

-some_guy/Elias/Eliyahu

Hi s-g/E/E welcome back!!

KOMT it doesn't matter how you calibrate the odometer as long as you're driving on the right road.

Gevura Shebyesod wrote:


in da right direction
probably need da correct lane as well
udderwise, you should be ok

b'hatzlachah

I have some bad news. I now have 14 tally marks, but I am not depressed. I am not even upset. I am happy and proud! I got 149 marks! That amazes me!

No matter what happens now, those marks are mine. I know that Tatte gave them to me and that he will happily give more! The next time the yetza hara attacks me by saying,'You are a failure,' I will pull out my index card and show him every hour that I have. The yetza hara can't go back in time to take those hours from me. They are a precious gift from my Tatte, and like any father, my Tatte will give me more when I ask.

On a different note, my therapist suggested that I fold a few note cards in half and write four quotes on them. Every day I will carry a different one in my pocket in case of emergencies. Do you have any suggestions for quotes to add?

Sincerely, some_guy/ Elias/ Eliyahu

Thanks for your honesty and positive attitude!

Today has been I good day. The yetza hara attacked me a little throughout the day, but Hashem always made him go away after a minute or two. I have 28 tally marks and feel so proud. Tatte has given me 28 present, 28 jewels that are just for me! I hope you all have a good night and better day tomorrow.

Sincerely, some_guy/ Elias/ Eliyahu

NEVER EVER GIVE UP!
Stay out of isolation.
Hashem Loves me and is taking care of me.
Let go, and let G-d run my life.


Just my suggestions off the top of my head. Check ppls signatures, and under their pictures, there are lots of good ones. the chizzuk emails are also full of them.

Around 2:00 I started having bad thoughts. My yetza hara convinced me that I have been clean for long enough. I got home at about 2:30. I had been thinking about the bad things the whole time. Everything was planned out. After I got through my front door, I put my bag in my room and head down the hallway that leads to where the computer is. Halfway down my yetza tov and yetza hara started fighting. I kept switching back and forth. A said softly to myself, "Go away you b*****d," and went into my room. I grabbed my Tehillim and opened to a random page and starting reading. Right now I am 99 hours clean.

I think that I have only pulled myself away like that 2 times before. It made me feel proud and strong. Knowing that I can give our Tatte so much nachas is such a great feeling. Have a good Sabbos everyone!

- some_guy/ Elias/ Eliyahu

Wow!! That's so amazing!!! Such a chizzuk for me to read!!

wow that's amazing! Tatte is proud of you and so are we! He is there for you anytime, you just have to reach out to Him.

KOMT and have a great Shabbos!

I have 3 hours clean. I probably fell because I did not have school today, meaning I had plenty of free time. Unlike last time, I felt weak and drained. Then I reread the last 10 posts or so on my/this thread and felt better. I am going to say those 10 tehillim you should say after a fall and then go to sleep. Tomorrow will me a better day.

-some_guy/ Elias/ Eliyahu

P.S. Tatte gave my this great gift. It is a 99 pound pure gold trophy! The inscription reads, "I am proud of you."