Wow, what posting!

Thanks CC, and a big "Hi!" to you, too.

To some_guy: You can always PM me if you like. Yes, it is all the same. But then whay get honest and be open about anything at all? U really think a guy who admits that he has "the lust problem" is admitting anything at all? No, the is not. It is not the information being passed along, but in the act of saying it itself - and to a real person - that the recovery comes. This is a well-known fact experienced by many.

So though it matters not what you did, what you do, and what you want, saying it means something...and not saying it certainly means something, as well.

Hello everyone,

I have not not been here for a REALLY long time. The reason is that I decided that I would never use an unprotected computer. That decision has helped a lot, put the obvious down side of it is that I could not post here.

I have been doing better. I have still had bad days, but those days never seemed as bad as they were before. The good day have been incredible. I cannot recall ever being as happy and carefree.

I am going to continue avoiding unprotected computers, so I may not come back here for quite a while. I want anyone reading this to know that you and this website are the reason for my recovery.

Sincerely, Eliyahu/Elias/some_guy

I never use an unprotected brain.

I have decided to join a phone conference, but I am not sure which one. Does anyone have any advice?

A lot of people like Duvid Chaim. I called in a few times. Anyone can get the number and lots of people are on it.

I was on dov's call for a while. You have to contact dov to get the number, and everyone must use their real first name. You will get a chance to share your first step inventory with the call. The first step inventory is a history of your acting out. You write it out and then share it (you may have to summarize for the call, some of us have a loong history ) I found that for this alone, the call was worth it - DAYEINU! (inyana diyoma )

Hopefully, others will chime in with their experiences.

Yesterday I was not doing well. Today I am better. I am constantly reminding myself to forget. Forget yesterday, the week before and every time I every did anything wrong EVER. Those mistakes are in the past, but I live in the present. The present will be the only thing on my mind.

-Eliyahu/Elias/some_guy

I have been clean for 3 hours. I will be clean for 4 hours, no matter what the Yetzer Hara does to me.

Hello,

The last week or two have been tough for me. School was on vacation so I had a lot of free time. Yesterday I saw my therapist and I am feeling much better. Have a good Shabbos everybody!

Eliyahu / Elias / some_guy

I recently read an article about a rabbi. I don't want to talk about what he did, but it showed me what would happen to me if I did nothing. I am going to try to cone here more often. If I can, I will post everyday, even if the post just says "Hi".

-- Eliyahu / Elias / some_guy

HI

I messed up this morning, but I don't care. That is in the past and I live in the present. I spend most of the day at my Shul and I am going to my rabbi's house for Sabbos dinner. I am not going to let some stupid mistake in the past ruin this wonderful day.

- Eliyahu / Elias / some_guy

Hi

- Eliyahu / Elias / someguy

HEY!!!!!

How are things? How was Shavous? How is life??

I am doing pretty good. Have had trouble, but I am ready to for a new start.

-Eliyahu/Elias/some_guy

Dearest E/E/s_g, what's gonna make this time different? look at the few last posts, same thing over and over.....It's ABSOLUTELY AMAZING that you keep on coming back, don't get me wrong, but for your sake it's not such a fun life....I know cause I've been there.

What it gonna be? What can you do more?