emunah18 wrote on 03 Apr 2012 02:28:


emunah18 wrote on 03 Apr 2012 02:28:


Emunah I was amused when I read your question followed by your P.S. And I don't mean this as a criticism of you but rather more reflective of all our human emotions.

When it comes to what we want Hashem and other to do for us. We want it now and we really don't want to have "slow" progress. By contrast when it comes to what we have to do for others we are perfectly complacent with "slow" progress and taking "one thing at a time." I believe that when the two come into equalibrium, that is are actions are commensurate with our expectations, then we will see the success we are looking for. Wishing you much continued Hatzlacha

Ur- a- jew Ur- a-genius thanx that helped me alot I dont know why but it made me feel very good thanx.

[quote="E-Tekie" post=135648]man wrote:


There is a preview button. Three and four to the left of the ebay button. And as Guard pointed out to me you can preview as you type.

geshertzarmeod wrote:


And if I register under exactly my old name, they'll migrate my posts?
Will they do this automatically on D-Day?

There is a preview button. Three and four to the RIGHT of the ebay button. And as Guard pointed out to me you can preview as you type.

But- you can't preview FORMATTING when you type.

HEEELLLLPPPP I am on my 90 day i dont know if its considered falling but i checked things up in the dic. to arouse myself i played kids games but not too nice i dont know i almost acted out but then i heard someone walking in the house and i stopped Hashem saved me but i feel so bad inside im 90 days sort of clean im still depressed nothing changed i still want it as badly as ever i am lost i dont know what to do or to tell myself G-d please help me anyone comfort me .I dont talk with you guys as much as i should i know i could have done better i'll try to be more involved in my own recovery this weekend is my brothers yartzeit He died 4 years ago i couldnt fall asleep last night until 5 in the morning i am just so overwhelmed i really still want to fall i am a bad boy i do bad things i know i have a neshama that is very special and pure but i covered it with shmutz and i dont think i'll get out while im still in yeshiva cuz i have a hard time there and i dont go on gye cuz "I need time to chill" so i use my time watching and playing and not doing anything about anything.Last night i let myself in a home alone with internet access why? how could I let myself do that i just wish i could die and all my craziness goes away

I hear you.

It sounds like things are really tough at the moment.

Stay here with us. Keep us posted. We're rooting for u.

ditto on shteeble's words

Thank you for pouring your heart out here, Emuna. That in itself should be theraputic. What mighty warrior you are, to stay sober under all these difficult circumstances.
Keep at it one day at a time.
Mottel

Just keep on posting.

Not only when you feel you're in trouble.

Check in every day, no matter what's going on. Even just to say, "hi."

--Elyah

now we're talking.

The urges don't magically go away after you pass 90 days.
But hopefully you've learned some new habits. New ways to quickly respond when your sobriety is challenged.
As an addict, my brain has been permanently altered by a life of incessant lusting.
90 days of sobriety hasn't changed that. Three consecutive years of sobriety hasn't changed that.
It's easier, only because I've learned to stay farther and farther from lust. That's what I'm better at; staying away from it altogether.

If I were to face it head on, I would be no stronger than I was on day one. And I'll have to take my word for it, cuz I'm not going to try it.

Ditto.

thanx guys i feel better today I would love to be on here more often but thank G-d I dont have internet access all the time whenever I do like on weekends I'll try to check in
Shalom everyone

If you can't stay in touch through the forum, maybe get a few phone numbers.

--Elyah