Today is 12 weeks!! 3 months! I had a wet dream last night, but I don't let it bother me at all. I think the further I go from this addiction the more infrequent they will become. The sexual urge is still strong, but the urge to masturbate has all but vanished. I feel so much more free! :D
One week left to 90 days...

Ano, do you realize how many people will be inspired from you for years to come? Once you are on the Wall of Honor and you write your recovery story (without any identifying details) many more people will see it is possible and take your example! What a zechus you have!

keep going ano!!! 12 weeks - can u believe it!? what are your thoughts any new kabbalahs?

Just finished my 13th clean Shabbos. It feels so great; I can't even describe it :D

Harav Ano, you should know, that you -and be holy and the rest- are bringing tremendous kochos down to this world. Even people that will never even hear of GUE, are gaining immensely from your tremendous accomplishments. Once you've done it, it will be that much easier for others. within a short time it can snowball to massive proportions, and before we know it Moshiach will be here!

wasn't shabbos so holy this week? i got some extra learning in and scored 2 new chavrusas- the kidusha of shabbos. we where singing this week and i was tearing it was so beautiful. did you feel the kiddusha in the davening- people told me i was screaming in davening. i felt alive and full of energy. it was so sad to see shabbos go. keep going- i feel a bit weak but we must stand together and fight the menuval/liar/cheat/crook- he will do antything to get us to fall- remember that is his job. we can't let our guards down.

So when do we make the big Lechayim? On Tuesday?  ;D

By my calculations it is Wednesday after Shkiya. It might be different for beholy. You could just make it Thursday morning to be safe :D

You and be holy truly inspire me! Will you continue posting about the after-90 days? I sure hope you guys will  8)

/JG

I will certainly stay around here. I may not post as often but I will be here to give and take advice and chizuk. The battle is not over after 90 days. It is never over. It just gets easier. The battle ends the day I die.

Ano, at 90 days I will upgrade you and Be-Holy's status on this forum to "Global Moderators". You guys will no longer just be members, but actual moderators of the forum. That means you will be posting Chizuk and people will look up to you. Your words will have a new power on this forum.  :D

Well this is the end. Actually it's really more like a new beginning. Without getting too cocky, I can say that I feel I have kicked the habit. I had never even gone a clean week since I started at 12, so it all looks bright in the future. I am tremendously inspired by be holy, who was clean for a year and a half, fell down hard, and instead of becoming depressed pulled right out of it, picked himself up and kept on going. If be holy can do that, nobody has any excuse to say "they can do it but I can't because .....". I davened at the kosel on Wednesday (day 90) and put a note in the kosel asking Hashem to assist all the warriors on this forum. I listed all the names I remembered at the time, and when I looked back at the forum later I saw that I didn't miss anybody. Lastly I want to publicy thank the REAL Ano nymous hero, who goes by the name of guardureyes. What you are doing here in incredible; keep it up. Hopefully at some point in the not too distant future I will be able to back that statement up with some $$$$ to help this site expand and advertise. Thank you!!!!!

Who knows, if more than anything else, this wasn't your lifetime's biggest accomplishment so far on this world?

guardureyes wrote on 20 Feb 2009 12:24:

I would say, without any doubt, that this was my biggest and perhaps only accomplishment so far in my life. The way I see it, an accomplishment is only called an accomplishment if you had to fight for it. If the road was clear and smooth and you walked far on it I don't think that's much of an accomplishment. If you had to climb trees and swim through miles of ocean filled with hungry sharks and you came out alive, that is an accomplishment.

Rav Noach Weinberg Zatza"l from Aish Hatorah (who passed away this past month) used to say: You have to know what you're willing to die for in order to know what you're living for".

P.S. There's no doubt in my mind that you wouldn't have seen such siyatta dishmaya in this struggle if you didn't have many other spiritual accomplishments under your belt already.