I did 9 days and unfortunately fell last night. I want to tell all of you a powerful feeling I felt when I was clean. I was in complete control of my emotions; I don’t get agitated quickly (if, at all); I did not feel irrational stress; I felt so much confidence in my being and self and I was starting ti gain the clarity I need. This, right here, is my motivation. 

Want to know how I felt immediately after I did it last night? I had a panic attack. I started to sweat and feel stress and agitation about things I shouldn’t worry about. 

I realized the issue. I’m focused to much on battling this immense taiva. it’s insane how creative I get just to get access to it. Filters or not. The constant hyper awareness of me needing to beat it was what lead to a fall. And I realized I will always  fall if that’s how I do it. So I need to make sure I replace the feelings of just fighting then just “looking” with productivity. 

I will beat this. With God’s guidance. 

I would love some tips though. I’m excited to see how I feel when I hit that 90 day mark (starting from today). 

Thanks for sharing, @childofhashem.

What have you done that has worked for you so far?

One tip that I can share is stay engaged on this forum and with this GYE community.