Keep soaring, brotha!!!

We need more people like you to help out others iyH. 

HUG!

Hi Bh today is day 40!!!! as muttel said yetziras havlad!!!
40 days of no M
40 days of being in control
40 days of not hiding from myself,my wife,and hashem
40 days of building back lost connection from myself my wife and hashem
40 days of fighting on the street to keep my eyes down 
54 days from watching P 
54 days from watching any entertainment
54 days not listening to the radio only shiurim 
Thank you to all my amazing mentors for helping me reach this goal and thank you to everyone on this incredible site for all the daily chizzuk posts! And of course to hashem, the siyata dishmaya I saw the last bit is incredible.
When I first started speaking to mentors and keeping myself accountable there were times that I couldnt handle it anymore and wanted to give up but I felt stupid to fall and then call my mentors... Which bothered me, that im not fighting for the right reason its not for hashem or to make myself a better person I just shter from other humans. Recently I saw a vort from R Tzaddok Hakohen that explains that when Yosef Hatzadik went to do the avaira (acc. to some shittos) and he didnt do it, because he saw a vision of Yakov Avinu. Its not kepshuto that he wanted it, but shtered from his father. Rather The yh convinced yosef that it was a mitzva he was destined to have children with her etc.. And when he saw his father who represents Emes. It woke him up that it was all the YH... So too us here fighting for freedom, just because we are sometimes convinced that its not worth it,  and were giving up and dont want to keep fighting its all the YH and sometimes we just need a mentor to keep us in place, to wake us up, and of course its what really want!!

He climbed the mountain
to the skies,
and then ascended higher 
Through the deepest primal darkess
into the roaring fire.

Higher now, in Lev Hashamayim
Hosts threaten to strike him dead
A mortal man dare not approach
where angel fear to tread! 

Yet for forty days he held on tight 
and reached until the Throne, 
For humble man posses choice 
In Malchus is his home- 

And sweeter than the sweetest power 
is when he hears the Voice
Banai Chavivi you’re the ones 
It’s YOU who are My Choice! 

KOMT!!! 
Love and admiration, 
Chaim Oigen