Mazel Tov!!! Mazel Tov!!! In your short time on this holy forum, you have managed to inspire so many with your efforts and perseverance. You have changed yourself, and allowed yourself to believe in what you once thought impossible. May you be זוכה to be the catalyst for all those that have a hard time believing. You're gonna go far my friend, and you're gonna bring many people with you, back to our Tatte in Himmel.

Mazel Tov!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (not 90 exclamation points)

Amazing work, onwards and upwards!!!!

Muttel

WOW! WOW! WOW!!!!!!
CleanMendy, this is beautiful! You are an amazing inspiration to all of us, and to me in particular
My dear lichtige friend, keep flying higher and higher, and take us along for the journey!

I broke my geder of no randomly browsing. Continuing with the gameplan.

Do you have an accountability partner for this geder? 

I know for me, it would be extremely helpful...

proudyungerman wrote on 31 Mar 2025 22:19:


I don't feel like telling him something so minor, again I'm not talking about inappropriate browsing.
Id rather just post on here.

cleanmendy wrote on 01 Apr 2025 14:57:

I was suggesting asking a different friend to help hold you accountable specifically for this. 
I know that it would do me good to read TBOTG every night, but I was having a hard time getting it done. I found a friend who was also tryin' to read it, and we now hold each other accountable. 
I know for myself that while posting here is powerful, this works even better.

I was going on a walk with my kids today, out of the corner of my eye I saw something, without thinking I turned around to go the other way to get a better look. I caught myself and continued on my way.

My YH quickly started telling me, see, your hopeless, did you see how you automatically turned, you'll never beat this. Its just a short term thing, your doomed for failure in the end you may as well enjoy now... He went on and on.

But I countered, yes, I automatically went to get a better look, but then I stopped myself. That sure never happened before!!!!

So I am getting places! Maybe even for the rest of my life ill start looking and then stop myself, I honestly hope not, but I could do it.

On the next corner my carriage broke, a whole new slew of sevaras. Hashem didn't accept your holding back, He doesn't see... He doesn't reward you.

This was a little harder for me, cuz I've had that mindset for a while, that Hashem has to pay me instantly for my good deeds. I know its wrong, I hope to read the chapter in TBOTG that discusses this point tonight.

Wow
You beat him again
Keep it up

cleanmendy wrote on 02 Apr 2025 01:00:

תניא פרק כז - worth seeing the whole thing
ולכן, אל יפול לב אדם עליו, ולא ירע לבבו מאד, גם אם יהיה כן כל ימיו במלחמה זו, כי אולי לכך נברא וזאת עבודתו, לאכפיא לסטרא-אחרא תמיד.