Just wanted to share with the oilam here, I'm currently on a 34 day streak no P no attempted P no using unfiltered devices (working with HHM doing accountability). I've made it this far in the past- never used to count but have definitely gone a couple months clean, but I always eventually let my guard down and the gedarim start to fall to the side and then comes a fall. Wondering how those who have been here before push past this hump and continue on lasting sobriety. For now I'll keep checking in here updating my streak- that gives a good feeling of accomplishment seeing the days build up. GMAR CHASIMA TOVA to all the amazing people here!

I am not there yet (you are ahead of me!) but my thoughts are, p/m was filling a void in life, whether as a pacifier for stress/anxiety/etc or due to a lack of meaning etc. I believe/hope that if you fill the void in a positive way, you won't need the p/m fixes. In example one of gedarim I put in place when starting with HHM was to stop using a certain social media platform. I felt it would be a big trigger. To fill that void I am here more often commenting, trying to give chizzuk etc. Oh and by the way, GYE is actually real, unlike social media is all fluff and fake, so I actually feel good about being here, commenting, be mechazek, etc.
#My(NotSo)HumbleThoughts

Mr94 wrote on 07 Oct 2024 03:52:


Firstly, 34 days is an immense achievement. Hashem should bless you with the strength to continue this amazing journey you are on. 
Secondly, I have found that as soon as I have any urge, I reach out to the people on here, read some threads or shoot a text to your friends here. 
You don't even have to say why you are texting. Just a good morning text works great for me. Being amongst friends who are on a similar journey to yours, and understand what you are dealing with with, helps me a lot. 
Until I feel I am strong enough to stand on my own two feet, I will continue to reach out to my friends on a regular basis. And after I am strong enough, I'll still reach out to my friends!!! 
Also, try shmoozing to someone who is on a 1 day streak. You made it to 34, now talk to someone who may need your friendship, warmth and understanding. 
Hatzlacha in your amazing, awe inspiring journey to 1 million days clean! 

eiyantov wrote on 07 Oct 2024 10:59:

Couldn’t agree more, 100%. The more I work on real life challenges- shalom bayis, being there for children, getting up early to daven properly, learning with chavrusos etc. the more real inner contentment I feel and therefore don’t need to turn to fake fixes. I just know that even despite that if I let my guard down then BAMM! I’ll get blindsided when I’m not expecting it. The way I see it I gotta constantly remind myself why I have these gedarim and not for any reason be lenient on them. This challenge isn’t something you could fix with one trick, it takes a combo of different things to overcome. Hatzlacha to you, may you succeed on your goals and journey,