Steve wrote on 10 Feb 2010 06:39:
WAAAAAA WAAAAA!
HB is getting sleep, and I'm not!!!
WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!.....
...Who's baby are u taking care of?
Woke up very early today...4 AM...I'm very down over my finacial situation which is in a finacially dangerous state...I'm trying to medidate that we have to be like the Oichlei Man (not cannibalism CH"V, the Manna from Heaven) Trying to concentrate on the fact that Hashem will provide day by day. For those that need a refresher on their Bible knowledge, the people that ate the Man only had what to eat for that day. What to eat tomorrow they relied completely on Hashem to provide that miracle anew in the barren desert.
As I delve deeper into my low spirits this morning... writing to you holy crazy people helps do that (I mean that in utmost repect, of course!). I'm beating myself up for all of the time wasting when i could have been trying to earn....You see the cycle of this Y"H...Depressed there is no Parnossoh....No hope to even creep out of my financial rut...So why bother working...So get depressed and beat myself up...brings me again to the feeling of Yiush and hopelessnes....Stop I getting depressed again...
Have a fabulous day everyone!