No i dont use P..n 
I don't know my options with tharpy

@notezy, I can relate to your continued "falling." It is a vicious cycle that is hard to break. Do you see any recurring events leading to the falls? Is it a certain time or day or a certain situation (like walking the streets with underdressed women) that triggers you? Also, how available are unfiltered devices? I am thinking about things that led to my many falls. I have learned that nothing is unpenetrable, but the more friction you can put between yourself and the urge, the better. Those few moments that I had to wrestle with getting past a filter have saved me numerous times.

Anything that you can do that can give you an advantage in this battle is well worth the effort.

Coming on here is a HUGE step and please keep coming

I would say women on the street can be an issue sometimes but generally it's to do with self worth, somtimes it's just strong urges nothing more or maybe I haven't identified where those strong urges come from I'll say the strong urges come after longer clean streaks.. and somtimes just in the morning when I wake up which I assume comes from thinking about things unintentionally the night before... speaking of filters I have web chaver on both devices and I use "Lock me out" as a parental locking control for my phone and Microsoft family safety as a parental controls for my computer. Genrally very locked down. 

ashrecha that you set up those protections! knocking p. out of the picture is HUGE.

i would suggest to follow Frank.lee's head.

hatzlacha!

Fell again tonight.
not sure what you mean by franlees head...
I would also add that their is stuff i see somtimes online not p..n but still problematic. 

frank.lee wrote on 23 Jun 2024 06:43:

therapy is a tremendous brocho and resource our generation was zoche to. if you're determined to put in the work, it can (w hashem's help) bring you from a horse and buggy to a sports car.
also, nowadays there are really good options that except insurance essentially making the help you'll get free.
somewhere on this site there are links to referral agencies who can show you your options and guide you to the right shliach. (one such option is relief)

Went to Jerusalem today for a meeting. Stopped by the kotel to pray for everyone again....
I gaurded my eyes on the street as much as i could there but still have urges as i am arriving home. So I guess it's time to fight for it going to try to go help my rabbi with something to keep busy.

Made it through the night.
But the battle is never over.

I had a fall 

Harav Rabbi Notezy, I think its time for you to start doing something different. 
Please reach out to HHM and schedule a therapy visit. You need to start somewhere. Yu are stuck in the mud and turning your wheels. that not working for you., 
Sorry for being harsh, but it hurts me to watch you suffer like this, when there are so many tools available now BH. 

Check out this post, it will give you perspective on how important this struggle is. 

guardyoureyes.com/forum/15-The-Torah-amp-Chizuk-Approach/415810-Rabbi-Tzvi-Freeman

Another fall.
Ill look into it when i get a chance i dont know when that will be.

notezy,

I really feel for you watching this cycle.... been there, done that.... Are you regularly in touch with a mentor here on GYE for some accountability (HHM)? It's doing wonders for me.......

Here's hoping you can turn failure to success, get out of this mess, turn over a new leaf, and satisfaction from aliya reap!

Muttel

notezy wrote on 27 Jun 2024 16:18:

Email me if you want to talk

And another fall tonight....