Awesome Keep it up!!

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I'll think about it I don't know if I will be able to keep up but it's a good idea..

Start of day 2 
and also for the youtube and spotify thing.
Surprisingly calm right now about I don't expect that to last I wonder if sleep had an affect on it.

Close to end of the day 
kept myself busy most of the day hiking with a friend and then work.

I went and read some news article about israel about the Rafah crossing thing... I dont normally read the news i am debating blocking the browser entirely...
I also went searching for a tool for windows 10 website blocking for a while didn't find anything that I was looking for...
Anyways that about sums it up for today. Still a struggle but whatever... I dont know what I'll be doing tommrow to keep busy...

Start of day 3 and I am already feeling the urges this morning.

Had a fall didn't use any material...

Sorry to hear. You are amazing that you are on the level to be in touch with your feelings and reach out here.

Keep up the great work!

notezy wrote on 08 May 2024 08:31:

Massive progress! Keep up the good work.

Went on youtbe 30minutes 2 videos on my computer which I still haven't found a tool for locking down yet...Nothing bad just some people I am subscribed to military documentaries...anyways not sure how i am going to proceed I might try to go cold turkey again, I might try just staying off the stuff on my phone and limiting my usage on the computer..those 2 days with no media were really hard for me..But it had some good affects and helped with the battle

notezy wrote on 08 May 2024 14:31:

Don't let one little fall convince you to throw in the towel on this. It can be really helpful. 
Obviously a filter is the best tool for locking down the computer. But one eitzah for extra limitations on top of your filter (which I think is your matziv?) is a browser extension like this. Pro tip, add the chrome web store as a blocked page so you can't easily uninstall. You can set a time limit on sites, which may be what you want.
You also have to delete your other browsers, except you can't delete edge in Windows anymore. Instead, download a similar extension in edge and block everything. 
Disclaimer: This is not a substitute for a filter. But it is a decent way to limit use of "kosher" sites for time management purposes.

Day 1.
it's all a bit up in the air right now.
I am also going to try to limit my usage of GYE.
to be continued...

notezy wrote on 09 May 2024 07:54:

Dear Notezy,

I follow your posts. You are a fighter! Please don’t give up!

May I suggest you take a break from counting days? Counting days has its time and place. It’s really a separate discussion about how to properly utilize counting as a tool to keep on growing.

Yet, when one is falling every few days, it can become cause for burnout.

Maybe, for now, take yourself a break. Breathe…relax! I am wondering if you are over obsessing about counts/filters/fighting.

Perhaps, by taking a step back, you can focus on living sober, meaning, living in the moment, without always giving in to that itch of “escaping”.

Live your life, calm down, dude. Get yourself something to eat, Daven, learn, enjoy working on meaningful relationships with your loved ones. Take a walk in a scenic park, life is beautiful!

I’m not suggesting you should indulge in porn. The point is, maybe take a step back and a deep breath.

Warmly, -YKW

Gotcha yah to clarify what I meant by taking a step back from gye:
I was using the sos portal to play games and distract myself and obsessively opening gye and looking for somthing to do on it thats what I meant by taking a step back from it. In order to take a step back from my phone. Today I spent about 14minutes on it and yesterday 2h the day before 1h big difference. I still got the same benefits as using the msg board but I just wasn't compulsively opening it... looming at my stats on the "digital well being app" it looks like I opened the app only 10 times 2/3s less then normal and I have probably used it better then any other day. I also decided to not right about every other feeling I had... anyways  that's the long form of saying I am not leaving thr app or freaking out... 

Now about today. 
i went on YouTube again this morning but after that I was done I set up my lock on my phone so now I can't use my browser unless it's for emergencies and only in 5-10min intervals (resets every hour) so no more news reading but I still have a bit off access if I need. I was busy today Shachris, gym, bit of leanring, minch, lunch, work. Didn't have a pull to it today most of the day because I was busy I imagine it will get easier when Bein hazmanim ends ill be busy...
Tommrow might be hard but ima try to go see my nephews to keep busy. 
oh i started reading a book at work which helped me stay off my phone. Starting to warm to the idea of no more media but I am looking at it now from the perspective of I dont need it although I still want it somtimes and I am going to gradually cut it out my life but if I open it up on my pc when I am really bored once in a while it's okay.. I think thats a fair balance especially if over time I push to get myself off completely and if I see this plan isint working I'll have to just block it on my laptop.
A good gague for if I am over using it is if I am searching for stuff beyond my subscription feed to just fill time if I am doing that then I have been using it to much and need to get off...


Okay those were my thoughts for today.