Had a fall. Will hopefully post more after Shabbos about the fall and what I will do to prevent it after. Just want to get a post in here for accountability to not continue with falls.

Day: 0
Cumulative Clean Days: 1284

Had another fall last night. No despair. 

Here is my plan, bl"n:

• Daven to Hashem at least twice for help in overcoming the urge to view pornography and/or masturbate
• Post here 5-7 times a week
• Post here within 3-5 minutes of having an urge
• Restrict the usage of my work computer to work only.
• Put my work computer away at the end of the work day <-- new one

What went right? Restricting my work computer usage has been a blessing in my life. I have spent *so much* less time (many days zero time) viewing online content that is both unimportant, meaningless, and in some cases, lewd and sexually enticing.

What went wrong? I had a routine before Pesach when I got to day 58. It was harder to recover when my routine was suspended for two weeks. I haven't done enough proactive outreach.

Finished work and my work machine is away in a closet. No urges or issues today. One day at a time.

I am the last one awake in my house. I want to stay up to learn Torah. I have no urge or temptation right now, but still, I am posting here proactively. When I am done learning, it is right to bed. No falls. I will, bez"h, share tomorrow morning that I didn't have any issues tonight,.

Posting here last night helped me stay accountable. Sticking to the plan.

Day #1

Keeping my guard up. Reaching out for accountability. One day at a time.

Day #2

Day #3

Had a fall on Friday. No pornography, just masturbation.

I am up late on Motzei Shabbos. I was thinking about a full on fall. The fact that I packed away my work computer at the end of the day yesterday helped. Even though I can just walk over there, take it out of the bag, and turn it on. It is those extra steps that force me to pause and think a bit first. Work computer is still away. I keep going back and forth. Should I have a fall now? No. Should I? No. Time for a post. Not going to fall. Going to sleep. Praying for no more pornography and no more masturbation.

Day #1

@sheva how's it going bro?

Good morning, all.

Had a fall yesterday. I had a long Sunday and was very tired. Wasn't being productive. Wasn't organized. Used my work computer for non-work clicking around to try to weather through the fuzziness of the morning and that was it.

No despair allowed. I took care of myself. I was productive a bit more at work. Learned Torah. Had a great rest of the day.

I will get there.

Day #1

Shabbos morning was cumulative clean days day 1300.

No time for despair I like it.
keep it up man.

Hello, everybody.

Posting here to hold myself accountable and announce to all that I have no intention of falling today. I have an urge now and I am not going to give in. I'll post here again when the urge has passed.

Day #2

All good.